Monday, July 20, 2009

Very Depressed - So many ups lately - Sorry!!!

Sorry I have not been around much lately there is so much drama in my life lately.

First my uncle (whom lives with me) has been in and out of the hospital again this month like 3 times and he almost died all them times. His blood sugar dropped to only 23 one time and 34 other and than his blood pressure dropped to 95/56 and pulse was only 60 the third time. He is suppose to be getting his body ready for dialysis and it seems like his body is not getting ready. He has had a horrible time because now he is sick with some kind of cold and has a horrible cough and is congested but the hospital is saying it is not pneumonia or bronchitis.

Than my stepfather was hospitalized last Monday, July 13, 2009 with chest pains and they thought he was having a heart attack because he has had 2 of them in the past when he was only 16 yrs old and 17 yrs old. So, they kept him until late Thursday, July 16, 2009. They couldn't find anything wrong with his heart or anything else and so they are ruling it severe panic attacks and gasterial infection.

Than yesterday stepfather's nephew was playing football and two guys collided with him and they slammed him down. So, he had to end up to the hospital because he couldn't see or breathe and they found out he has a punch hole in his lung and an air bubble by his heart. They flew him to a very special hospital to try to get all this fixed. So, my stepfather is really upset over that. We don't know what is going to happen there.

Like my stepfather is suppose to have any stress right. Well, than today we finally got served papers from the courthouse but we don't know what they are all about. We know they have to do with the house but we don't know if they are saying my stepfather has to go to court on a certain date or if they are saying we have to be out by a certain date. So, we have to try to find a lawyer or something to help us out with all this.

Than we thought we had a mortgage company that was going to take us on to get another place and they said "Oh yeah you can get at least $120,000 to $150,000" and they sent everything to underwriters and it come back today. And guess what "WE WERE DENIED". So, now I just don't know what to do anymore. I am just so depressed and I am going through one thing after another. I just have so much on me I just don't know if I am coming or going anymore.

I have to try to call all this stuff in for my uncle who is living with us. My mom is not feeling good at all either and she is having to take care of my stepfather. He is not able to do things for himself right now. And than my mom has to clean and cook for the whole house. It is just so much on us and we just don't know anymore. My mom's health is not good she has to go and get her foot xray because they foot doctor said something is wrong with her foot and heel. It is called something like Tendinisis or something. I am sorry I can't spell it.

Well, I am sorry I have not been on the computer at all in the past week. I have over 1000's of emails to try to read and I don't know if I am going to be able to do that because I am just so depressed. I thought I would share with you all what is going on in my life. I know you all have hard times too. I just thought I would share because maybe someone is going through the same thing I am and we can chat about it. Thanks again for reading and I hope you all have a great and blessed day. God bless each and everyone on here. Know I love you all and even though we have not met in person my heart is out there with you all. Take care and talk to you soon. Many hugs and lots of love, KAT :o(

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Just sitting home on a Saturday Night (BORED)

Hello and Good Evening Everyone! How is everyone doing? I hope fine!

Well, there has been some really sad stuff happening in the news lately. I just can't believe that Michael Jackson is dead at only 50 yrs old. He was my idol back in the day when I was growing up. I have his Thriller Album and several books of him when I was younger and I still have them. I even had his Off The Wall Album as well. But everything is packed up right now.

Than we have Farrah Fawcett who passed away as well. It is unbelievable that they passed away only a few hours from each other. It is remarkable and very weird.

What has been going on in my life lately? Well, it is just boring like normal. Very painful like normal as well. My leg is getting worse with the pain. I just don't know what is causing it. I don't eat or drink anything that has caffeine in it. I try to stay away from anything that has Citric Acid in it because I have gout too. So, I don't know why or what is causing this pain. It is from my lower back to my foot on my right side. My leg isn't swelled up so that is a plus but it still hurts really bad. Even just to get up to walk to the bathroom is killing me so much.

My birthday was on Monday, June 22 and I just turned 35 yrs old. I can't believe it. It was not a good day at all. Rob had to work until after 8pm and than my real dad and his ex girlfriend/Stepmom (whom he lives with) showed up and they started a fight and only stayed for 1 hour and that was it. I can't believe that they can't come around without starting anymore. He only stayed here for Father's Day only 2 hours and normally he stays longer but he didn't. That is what started the fight with my stepmom and him. Because my dad told her I didn't want her here for Father's Day and that was not it. He said he didn't want her here because she starts all the time. And it was his day and he didn't want her to be here. So, I said to him it was up to him if he wanted to bring her and all but we did have enough for her to come for dinner. So, that started it and my mom still sent her a plate for dinner and than all heck went off. So, than on my birthday the next day after Father's Day they come over and brought their drama over here and I just didn't want that on my special day. So, my dad decided to leave. No one got me a gift for my birthday. They all give me money. I didn't get much as they all didn't have much this year. The only thing I got which was my very EARLY gift from Rob and that was a BlackBerry Storm because he had to update phones in May and he got it for only $100 because we had to upgrade and they had a special. That is a kewl gift. I try to use it as much as I can. LOL! I am learning it and learning it as I am not familiar with it too much this is the first type of phone I have had that had all these features. LOL!

Other than that everything else has been boring and lonely and depressing lately. I just haven't been in a very good mood. I just don't know maybe it is because we are having to move. We did get Pre-Approved for up to $120,000 but we are trying to see if we can get someone else on the mortgage to see if we can get a little bit more for the place that we have found. So, keep your fingers crossed for us.

Well, I guess I will let you all go for now and I will try to get back on later or tomorrow okay. Take care and know that I am thinking about all of you all the time. Talk to you soon. Many hugs and lots of love, KAT :OD

Friday, June 19, 2009

Unbelievable more bad luck...

I really do believe that someone has a curse or bad luck is just hoovering over us all. LOL!

Just yesterday we had to call the ambulance on my uncle in which whom lives with us. Some reason his blood sugar dropped to only 33 and it is suppose to be between 120-140 at all times. He is on insulin so it really dropped to fast and he was unconscious more less and in and out of it. Me and my mom got scared and didn't know what to do because he would not wake up so we could try to get his blood sugar reading and to help him to get something in him to eat and drink. So, we just called the ambulance again. This is the 4 time in the past 3 months or more that it has done this. I have told his primary care doctor and his diabetic doctor too. See they are saying that he is going to have to go on dialysis soon. I really am not looking forward to that. It is bad enough I have to make his insulin needles up for him everyday and he is on 4 of them a day. He can't do it for himself because he can't see good for one and than he would over dose himself because he did that before when he first started taking the insulin that is why I started to do them for him.

That is why I have not been online since the other day. Plus, I am trying to find a mortgage company that will not lie to us and tell us one thing and than go and do something else.

I appreciate all the prayers and thoughts that are being said for us. We all really need lots of prayers for everyone. That is why I pray for you all as well.

Well, Monday, June 22, 2009 I will be officially "35" yrs old and I feel like I have not accomplished anything in my life at all. I feel like that failure my real father always said I would be. I can't believe my birthday will be here so fast. I am not able to go and do anything and don't have any money to do anything even if I wanted too.

Well, I hope you all have a great "FATHER'S DAY" and hope that you get to spend it with your fathers. Take care of yourselves and hopefully I will be back online later or tomorrow okay. I know I will not be online at all Sunday or Monday unless I get lonely okay. Well, you all be good and know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers always and forever!!

God bless you all and many hugs and lots of love, KAT :OD

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Another Bummed Out Day in Delaware!!!

I am very upset and down and out yet again today.

First off last night I didn't sleep well because I was up all night with muscle cramps in both my legs. They were so severe that I fell out of the bed trying to get them to stop cramping up. I am taking Potassium pills and Vitamin E everyday. I am eating vegetables and very light salt here and there but I am still getting the leg cramps. Well, that started my day off.

Than my stepfather was calling and calling me on the phone all morning wanting me to get up. Well, I didn't feel good because of being up all night so I didn't want to get up but he kept calling me. So, finally I got up at around 1pm today. I know I am so bad but what can you do if you don't get to sleep after 5am in the morning with all the cramps.

Anyway, when I got up I heard the phone ringing this morning but I just let it go to the answering machine well, because I did the lady that was trying to help us to get a mortgage gets someone else to call and tell us that there isn't anyway they can help us out. She leads us on about my mom and boyfriend coming in last Friday to sign paper work and because I told her on her answering machine on Monday that we needed to get things done within 1 months time. So, today I get a call not from her but someone else telling me that there isn't anyway they can help us out. What gets me is that they tell you one thing and because you ask them to help you to get all this done in 1 month or so they are like oh no we can't help you now. What the heck is going on there?? It doesn't make any sense to me.

Than it seems like so much is going on and on in our lives besides having to move. I can't believe what everyone wants from us and everyone is awhere of us having to move and no one wants to help us out but they want us to help them out with money and food and stuff and we have to have money to move. I just don't know what to do anymore. Do you say "NO" to them or do you help them out and than don't get any help in return and just keep giving out?

Rob had off today but he had to go to work to get them to straighten out his paycheck because they didn't put in for his sick time and we really need it because he had vacation time he had to use during his sickness. Thank goodness he had vacation time so he didn't lose any money. I don't know what we would have done if he didn't have any vacation time. We would not be eating or able to have any supplies for bathroom(toilet paper, shampoo, and soap). It is really hard with him being the soul provider in the family. Than he got bills from the doctor and imagining place that did xrays when he was sick. But he shouldn't got them because he has Coventry and some other insurance and it is suppose to be paying over 100% of his bills. So, he had to take that in as well. They said it has all ready been paid and don't know why they are sending him any bills. So, hopefully that will be worked out.

Well, I guess it is getting late and all so I guess I will sign off for now but you all take care and talk to you again tomorrow okay. I will be sure that I sign on to talk to you all more tomorrow okay. Love you all and many hugs and blessings!!! God bless you all! KAT :OD

Monday, June 15, 2009

WOW! I can't believe how long it's been...

WOW I am so sorry for not getting online sooner but it has been a very rough couple of months here.

We are still looking for a place to live. We are still in the same house but we have only until July 18, 2009 to be out. The bank is offering us a thing called "Cash for Keys" and if we offer the house up free and clean and no damage they will offer us some $$$ for the keys.

Rob has been out of work for the past 3 weeks before last week. He finally went back to work on June 1, 2009. He had walking Pneumonia and starting stages of COPD. I got really upset and with all the stress of everything that has been going on I got sick with Pneumonia and Bronchitis.

I just don't know what to do or where to turn sometimes. But I have been looking up to GOD so much lately. I have been praying more and more lately.

I thank you all for standing by me in my time of need. Please forgive me so much for taking so long to get back on the computer. I hope you all will understand.

Thank you again for everything and hope to be emailing you and chatting with you all again on here. I will try to do everything on here again everyday and hope I can stay on here at least once a week if not longer.

Well, you all take care and I will talk with you all again tomorrow. Thanks again for taking the time to read. And please forgive me for not writing sooner. I know it has been so long. We have had to do so much!!! Thanks! God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD

Friday, March 27, 2009


Thank you all so much for all the prayers got some really GOOD news. I should say "GREAT" news. My mom's test results come back and the paper said that there was "NO SIGNIFICANT ABNORMALITIES" that were detected in the testings.

As I am taking this as good news but I could be wrong. The doctor has not gotten the records himself to tell her but this is the letter she got from the hospital where she had to go. We got this letter today. We are so happy and relieved on this.

Thank you all so much for all the wonderful and kind words of support, prayers and everything else you all have been giving us all. It really means the world to me.

I wish I could do something for each and everyone of you but I don't know what I could do without any money or anyway of showing you how much I care. I am going to try to do some designs this week and I will post them here for you all to take a pick at them if you like. OK!

Just wanted to get online and let you all know what is going on. Thanks again and if I did take this letter wrong please let me know. God bless you always forever!!!! Keep the faith and keep up all the good work you all are done. Many hugs and lots of love, KAT :OD

Monday, March 23, 2009

Update on my mom's appointment

Hello and Good Afternoon Everyone!!

Just wanted to give you what I know about my mom's appointment today about her breast and the spots they found.

They have done a massive intensive diagnosic testing today. They did another mammogram at the hospital which has a better machine to test than the clinic does. They did an ultrasound of the breast as well. And some other test but my mom didn't know what it was called.

The lady that did the testing said to my mom it is on the inner wall of her breast. The tech lady was looking at it with her magnifying glass so I don't know if that is because it is so little or because she seen something she didn't like.

She told my mom that it would be 3 to 5 business days before she would hear anything back on this. So, now my mom is weird and upset over that. She thought she was going to know today.

If you all don't mind please say as many prayers you can for my mom (Geraldine aka Gerry). I love her so much. She is my best friend and I can't live without her. I don't know what I would do if she does have cancer. I have been praying all night and day. I have been crying since yesterday. I even cried myself to sleep last night. It is just so horrible to think about all this with everything else that is going on.

Well, I appreciate everything you all have done and are doing for me. You all are the BEST and I LOVE each and everyone of you who reads or keeps up with this blog. Thanks for the SUPPORT, FRIENDSHIP, LOVE, and most of all the PRAYERS!!!!!!!

Thanks again for everything and hope you all have a great and blessed day!! Many hugs and lots of love, KAT :OD

Friday, March 20, 2009

Still ALIVE and sorry for not writing sooner!!!

Well, it has been a very long time since I wrote last. I am still ALIVE to say the least. I have been super sick with Bronchitis and Pneumonia and I thought at one time or another they were going to have to call the ambulance on me and take me to the hospital. I am lucky that I didn't have to go there, but my uncle (he lives with us) had to go 2 times. Once in the end of February he was hospitalized with Pneumonia and Renal Failure and than again on March 3, 2009 for seizures and renal failure and his blood sugar levels dropping down below 40.

So, needless to say there has not been a good time in this house. My stepfather is very ill and now he has cut his leg open (back left) and it is really bad cut and it is leaking fluid like my leg does but mine is my right leg.

Now on Monday March 23, 2009 my mom goes to finally have her breast check again to see if the mass in there is cancerous or benign. Which I hope and pray it is benign. I don't know what I would do if it was cancerous. We have been waiting over 6 months to have this rechecked because Medicaid would not pay for it because it had not been over 6 months. So, we are hoping it is the fiber cysts she had before but gone down deeper. So, if you all believe in prayers will you please say a prayer for my mom Geraldine aka Gerry. I really do appreciate it because I (we) all depend on her so much and don't know what we would do without her.

Well, I guess I am going to go for now but I am hoping to be back tomorrow to update you all more as to what is going on. I am hurting really bad today and it is killing me to sit here to type. I am sorry. Please take care and talk to you soon. God bless and many hugs and lots of love, KAT :OD

Sunday, February 15, 2009

It's Me & I'm back but not sure for how long...

Well, I am sorry I have not been around much but hubby had off for his vacation from work from Feb. 3 thru Feb. 13. So during this time we all have been packing because we thought we were going to have to be out by the 6th of Feb. But luckily enough we didn't have to get out by than. But we do have most of the stuff packed up and in a Mobile Storage POD.

SO, during this time that we have been packing and getting stuff ready we got visited by a Local TV station to talk about foreclosures on homes but I was really disappointed at the angle they went with the story and we only got to talk like maybe 20 seconds at the most and it was nothing really what I said or what I wanted to be said. But least to say we were on TV.

Than during this time while Rob was on vacation we were visited by a Realtor for the mortgage company. He was really nice and very pleasant to talk too. He is going to try to help us get as much time as he can with staying here because he seen that there are several people here that are disabled and really unable to get out that fast. The main one is me. So, he said he is going to see what he can do for us and is suppose to contact us this coming week sometime. So, keep us in your prayers that they are not going to force us out and all because if so I am going to fight them until they get an eviction notice on me to get out.

Also, while Rob was on vacation I had a very severe nose bleed. This was one of many that I have been having lately. But this one was the WORST of them all. My nose bleed for over 1 hour and it was coming out so fast and out both nostrils that I was getting choked feeling because it was backing into my throat. I tried everything from ice packs, the silver knife in the middle of your back and to pinching your nose off and tilting it back. Nothing worked at all and I went through 1 whole roll of toilet paper, 2 bath wash clothes, and 2 ice packs. And it finally stopped after 1 hour of bleeding. I was really scared and my mom and Rob thought that they were going to have to call the ambulance because it was not stopping. After that happen I got really weak and had severe pains in my head afterwards. My real dad said that it is good that I bleed because I could have had a stroke or heart attack.

So, what else has been going on. LOL! There has been so much. My real dad and his girlfriedn(Wife) are having a hard time and fighting and I think she is trying to push my dad away from her. See she has a brain tumor and is not all there and thinks my dad is no good at times and goes through these spells and all. So, I don't know what my dad is going to do next. I don't know if he is going to stay with her or if he is going to leave so he has been hanging around my house a lot lately. Matter of fact he just left again for the 2nd time today. He was here early this morning for over 3 hours and than he left to go to a friend's house to help him out and than he come back by here and was here for another hour or so and just now leaving here at 5:35p eastern time. LOL!

Rob is finally back to work and I am missing him because I really do enjoy having him around me because he helps me out so much and can keep me calm when I get upset or mad or what have you. He can always cheer me up when I am down. I just wish we had so much money we didn't have to have him work. Because it would be so nice to have him home all the time. But I know that will NEVER happen in my life time. LOL!

I hope everyone had a great Valentine's Day yesterday. My mom and stepfather got me a purple plush bear (little) & a box of chocolate candy (which I didn't need) but that was so nice of them. I was not expecting it and I just started crying and crying. I have a very soft heart and emotions right now. I was upset because I was not able to get them anything in return. SO, Rob went to Walmart and got some Mix Candy Bears and I split them up with my mom, stepfather and uncle and did them a good bag up for Valentine's Day and I made Homemade cards as well with Pink Ribbon I had here. It was cute but it was the thought that counts I guess. I didn't have much money to get everyone something separate so I just did it that way. It cost Rob maybe $5 for all three but at least it was from my heart. Rob got me a Teddy Bear that has the year on the foot from Walmart and that was really sweet. He always does that every year. I didn't get to get him anything at all but I did up a bag of candy and card for him so that is what I got him but actually he bought it. But it was from my heart though.

Well, I guess I will let you all go for now and thanks for taking the time to read all this and appreciate all the wonderful comments and thoughts on everything so please keep them coming in and please by all means email me at anytime you want. I will try to get to you as soon as I can okay. Take care and talk to you all soon. God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD

Monday, February 2, 2009

Poem - Had to share! Enjoy Sent to me by a Friend online! Thanks!!

Carry me through today, Lord,
With Your gentle wings from above.

Carry me through today, Lord,
Let me feel Your love.

I shall not worry about tomorrow,
Yesterday is gone.

Just carry me through today, Lord,
That's where I belong.

Through all my trials and troubles,

I know that You are there;
Sometimes it's hard to see You
Through each tear and care.

Carry me through today, Lord,
Don't let me slip away.

Tomorrow may be taken from me,
So carry me through today.

Written by ~ Margaret Wildflower

Can't believe it and very Upset over it

I can't believe that we are having to pack everything up. My mom and boyfriend (hubby) are having to pack everything up because I am very depressed and emotional and at this point really don't care what happens because of having to move.

I just can't believe we lost the home. It is not all our fault and it is alot on the mortgage company too. If they would have just communicated to us about everything we would be able to stay here. It is not right and there are so many mixed emotions going through my mind and head right now.

I am sorry to keep talking about it all the time but I just don't have anyone to talk to and explain what is going on with me. It is hurting me so badly. Last night me and Rob (Hubby) got into a fight because I asked him when he got done eating if he could go and make the bed. I told him I was not feeling well and was in a lot of pain and started to cry and said I was very depressed as well. Than he yelled back at me and said "Well you don't have to take everything out on me" and I was like what the heck did I do? I was so dumb founded. Like what did I do or what did I say by just asking him if he could go and make the bed up. See he has to help me to the room being I am handicapped and can't walk all that well.

So, he did do it but than when we got into the room I asked him what that was all about and he said he is sorry that he took me wrong. I was like I am not the one you need to be taking this out on because I am here for you. So, he did apologize and give me a hug and kiss and all but still it is the point of it. I didn't say anything wrong and he has been doing this alot lately.

I know everyone is hurting and having so many different emotions and all. I understand that. It is really hard on me and my mom the most because we both are emotional people and cry over everything.

The walls are starting to look bare and I can't believe it. What am I going to do??? I am just so upset and I don't want to go and I just want to stay. What can I do to still stay? Does anyone have any answers for me????

Well, they have a POD coming tomorrow if we don't get a foot of snow. No but we are suppose to get at least 4 inches of snow tomorrow and I don't know if they will deliver the POD than or not. They are suppose to be here sometime between 3pm and 5pm tomorrow. So, I don't know. We are getting one of them 16 foot PODS.

That is another reason why I am so upset because I had to call and set that up today. Most of the stuff I have to do because my stepfather is really sick and can't stay awake anymore and my mom is trying all she can do to pack up everything and try to do what she can do without her back giving out on her. She has a very bad back which has over 6 herniated discs. I don't know what I would do without her she is my EVERYTHING. She is the one that helps us out with cooking and most the cleaning when my hubby (ROB) is not here.

Well, I know this is enough about what is going on in my life but I just had to talk to you all because I just don't have any friends to call or contact and vent a little on and don't have any friends here locally at all.

Well, I guess I better go for now and get ready for bed. I am hurting really bad I was going to the bathroom this evening and my knee gave out and popped out on me and now I can't walk even more. So, I am going to have to take some Tylenol (cheap kind from Walmart) and get some sleep if I can. Which I know I will not because of the pain and stress level I am under this evening.

Thank you all for listening and reading if I can I will get on tomorrow if I can but I don't know. I will keep you all posted.

We still have not heard anymore on if my step-grandfather is going to be able to help us out with this place outside of town. We are waiting to see if he can get the approval so keep your fingers crossed for that or keep them crossed for good news on staying here where we are at now.

Please if anyone has any advice I am all ears and eyes and would love to hear some feedback from you all. Thanks again for everything and look forward to talking with you all again soon. Take care and many hugs, lots of love and many prayers, KAT :OD

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Yippeee Steelers Won!!!

WOW my uncle is so happy the STEELERS WON the SUPER BOWL!!!!! By only 4 points. It was a very good game and it was a very close game. I know my uncle is so happy.

If you are a Steeler fan congrats to you and your team!!!!

If you are a Cardinals fan Congrats on a good game and you put your best foot forward. But I am sorry you had to lose to Steelers.

It was a great game and I can't believe I actually watched it all the way through and I am not one into the football either.

Well, take care and talk to you soon and thanks for reading!!!

Talk to you more tomorrow going to get ready for bed now that the game is over and boyfriend (Hubby) is home from work. He is sick so we are going to go to bed now. OK! Take care and many hugs to everyone. Love, KAT :OD

A Warm Day In Delaware!

Hello and Good Afternoon/Early Evening to Everyone!

Sorry I have not been online much but as you have been reading on my posts I am trying to find a way to save my home but that is not looking any good at all. So, we have been looking for a place to go. As of Feb. 6th, 2009 we are suppose to be out I guess of the home we lost but we still have not found any place to go and we are hoping they will extend it to another 30 days. We have yet gotten an eviction notice from the sheriff so we will see what goes on.

No one has been in touch with us in over a week and we have tried to call them and they are just giving us another run around about everything. I was transferred to like 5 different people the other day just to get told that we have to look the place up at and see what the price is on there. We looked it up but as of right now it is saying starting bid is $211,000 and the house is not even worth that much and I don't think it would even appraise at that because it is over 22 yrs old and it is only on a little over 1 acre and it only has 2 bedrooms and 1 bath. We do have a upstairs but we use it as an attic because the stairs are not all that great and no one can walk up there and the upstairs rooms are unfinished anyway. So, we just use them for storage. I don't know what else to do and I have been in touch with everyone.

I did some research as you all know on Litton Loan Servicing and I posted the links on what they have been doing to people and it is not right. I wish there was a lawyer out there that would take on Litton and get them to get their stuff in order and stop playing with everyone's lives and their homes and etc. It is not right and very immoral to me. You can't even get sick or have a spouse pass away without them trying to take your home.

Well, enough about all that because it brings me down when I talk about that. Today I have not been feeling well because of all the stress I am under. I don't know if I was having a heart attack or a very severe panic attack but I took an aspirin and a xanax I had from when I was able to go to the doctor that I saved up and it calm me down finally. But than again it is really warm here today like in the 60's and I just can't believe how warm it is. Tomorrow and Tuesday we are suppose to be getting colder and maybe even possiblity of snow on the way yet again.

So did you all get any snow from last week? We finally got some snow and I loved it but the bad thing about it that it didn't last that long. LOL!

Well, I am going to get ready and go for now and I will see if I can come back later and talk some more got to potty and my mom is getting dinner done and getting ready to eat.

If you all watch the Super Bowl tonight ... Good luck on the team of your choosing. I am voting for the Steelers because that is my uncle's team that lives with us. So, GOOOOOO STEELERS!!!!!!!

Take care and talk to you all soon. God bless and many hugs, love, and prayers, KAT :OD

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Yet Another Day in Delaware

Well, I am still here but not know how or why. I am just getting depresser by the day. I have tried everything I can do to find another home that will accommodate us all to even trying to save the home we are all ready in. It is totally hard when you don't have a lot of money and no credit to get anything.

Today is another day and everyone is still giving me lots of run arounds.

A friend of mine did a search on the Internet to see what type of bank/mortgage company Litton Loan Servicing really are and boy did she find some really bad stuff on them. If you ever want to look it up go to and type in either Litton Loan Servicing in Houston, TX or Complaints Litton Loan Servicing or even Litton Loan Servicing and see what you find out.

Here are just a few of the links that I got sent to me about all this...
(You can look or you don't have to look at all just thought I would share with everyone about how bad this company is.)

Consumer Affairs

Class Action Suit Against Litton Loan Servicing

Ripoff Report

Better Business Bureau (BBB)

Complaints Board

Well, we are still waiting to hear from the Attorney's but I know we will not so we are going to call them back tomorrow as it will be the 3 business day but I know they will give us another run around because they really don't want to talk to us anyway. We are still in touch with Mr. Allan Angel with Levy Court even though he is not in our district he is still trying to help us out as much as he can do. I was reading today that I could have tried to get a H4H if Litton would have told us about that. It is called H4H (Hope 4 Homeownership) it is a new program President Bush put into effect back in October 2008. I have to read up on it more in detail to see if we could have been able to do it but I just thought I would let others know if you have hard times look into it because it is good until 2011. Go to and you will be able to click on Hope for Homeowners I think that is the link I clicked on. Or you maybe able to go to too and find stuff. I have been doing a lot of research as I didn't know we would even be considered for HUD or FHA if we were at a Conventional Loan. So, I have been doing as much research as I can and so don't hold all this to be true for everyone as I am not totally sure but it is worth looking into if you come into trouble.

I want to say "THANK YOU" to everyone that has helped me out and for just listening and reading my post. You all mean so much to me and I hope that my outcome will come out of this really well, but who knows what tomorrow will bring to us all.

I want to let you all know that foremost IMPORTANCE in my life right now is SAVING my home or getting a home that will Accommodate everyone and their disabilities including mine. That is not working right now but I am still going to keep the faith and just stay positive and focused in all I am doing.

I know my HEALTH should be the most important thing right now but it isn't because if I was to worry about that I would be back in the hospital fighting for my life. The pictures I posted are OLDER pictures from when I had MRSA (Staph Resistant Infection). It is NO where never as bad as that and I am trying to make sure that it doesn't get that way. The only way I can do that is to be positive and think happy thoughts and try not to get over STRESSED or UPSET but right now that is not going in my direction but I am trying and that is all I can do right now.

Thank you all again for all your advice, prayers, thoughts, love and support. I truly really do appreciate everything from the bottom of my heart. You all are the best and look forward to talk with you all again soon. Thanks for everything and hope you have a very blessed day and hopefully I will be able to getting back into designing sometime soon after all this so I can show off my work. Take care and talk to you soon. God Bless Everyone!! Much love, support, prayers, and hugs, KAT :OD

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Still hanging on yet again today...

Hello and Good Afternoon Everyone!

Well, I am still here but don't know for how long. Everyone here at the home is really depressed/sad/anxious and don't know what to do. We have been calling the attorney's office to see if they will give us a payoff or purchase price for the home but they are still giving us a run around like normal. First when we called there to ask for a certain lady and they told us that there was no one there by that name. Than we told them who we were and we were told to ask for this person and they said "HOLD ON" with an attitude and very mean to us. Well, they transferred us over to guess who, you said it right the lady we were suppose to talk to in the first place which they said that didn't work there. So, than she tells us we have to wait 4 to 5 BUSINESS DAYS to find out anything and we have to call back than. But in the mean time she told us that there are fees and other stuff that is added in daily. So, that is not right when we want to get this done as soon as possible.

What gets me is why would you want to do this if you can get the money and get it out of your hands. Meaning the attorney and the loan company. I just don't understand why they are going through all this if they can get their money.

Well, I guess this is all for now but I maybe back later depending on what is going to happen next. OK! Thanks for everyone reading and I know that everyone is having hard times and I know that so many are losing their homes and jobs and I do Sympathize on all this because I know what I am going through and I hope and pray that NO ONE has to go through all we have been through.

Thanks again for everything I really do greatly appreciate everything and the advice and friendship I am getting from you all. God bless and many hugs and love always, KAT :OD

Monday, January 12, 2009

Apologizing & Sorry!

Hello and Good Evening Everyone!!

I want to apologize to everyone who has read my post before this one about the house and to everyone who think I am asking for MONEY or handouts as I am NOT. I am just asking for advice at what I may be able to do to try to SAVE the home I am IN NOW because of all that would have to be done to get me out of the home and not counting all the stuff that would have to be moved and costs of living (renting) any other place. It would cost the same amount if not more of what we were paying in the beginning $1200 to rent something around here. Than you have to have First, Second and Last month deposits and than Security deposit as well for most places.

And than alot of people think that it is just so easy to get up and move around and leave my home when it is not that simple as some think. I have tried everything from not eating to help in losing weight to 1500 calories a day but being I am IMMOBILE I can't seem to lose the weight. Which is not the main issue with me not being able to move the legs are the main reason for me not being able to move around.

If you are interested here are some PICTURES of what I am going through with my legs and some pictures of myself being overweight and all.... Some of these are graphic so be warned check them out on your own....

I just wish it was so SIMPLE as to get up everyday without being in so much pain from the swelling in my legs. It isn't that simple but I still manage to get up out of my bed and try to go on with the new day. Everyday is just a challenge to get out of the bed for me. Robert has to help me everytime I get out of the bed and it takes me at least 30 mins to get from the bedroom to the bathroom to the living room if I am going to sit out there for the day.

My day involves sitting so much that it isn't funny and it is not like I want too. I would love to be able to get up and go outside and breathe in fresh air but I have a oxygen tube in my nose 24 hours a day too. Plus, with the other illnesses it would take me over 3 hours to get out of the house if that, short amount of time and when I come back it would take us another 3 hours to get back in the house and than the next day I would not be able to walk to the bathroom at all and if I did I would be crying because of the pain. But than again so many people will say NO PAIN, NO GAIN but I have been in pain now for over 20 years and I have had to try to learn to live the best I can live with what I have.

I have to have help from my mom to even fix me food to eat each day. I have to depend on Robert to have to bath me in my bed and help me with dressings and changing of bandages for my legs so they will not get infected. If I get them infected I could lose my legs or even die because this has happened before where I almost lost my legs and I have almost died as well.

But I am sorry I have not been able to get back online until today to explain and I am sorry that everyone felt like I was asking for them for money and I am NOT. I am just asking for help. Thanks for taking the time to read this and I will try to get on as much as I can but I am trying to save my home so it maybe a few days at a time okay. God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Sad, Depression and need advice!

Hello and Good Afternoon Everyone who reads this blog,

I am very sad, depressed and all as you know what may or may not know what has been going on in my life. So, here goes as I am going to explain it again and look forward to this being long, but I will try to explain it short but into detail the best I can okay. LOL! Thanks for taking the time to even read this.

First off you know that I am disabled and most of you know that I am homebound. Well, the Sheriff's office SOLD our home on 1/8/09 but the good news is that NO ONE BIDDED on it. So, they bought the home back for $133,200 and the good news is if we can get the money to buy it back from them we can STAY in the home. The bad news is if we can't get the money we only have 30 days to find a place to move too. We know that the loan company will want at least the $133,200 but I know they will be asking for more I am sure because the original loan was for $180,000 at $1933 a month for the mortgage payment. That is why we were NOT able to afford that. But it was only $1200 and we were able to afford that and it just kept going up and up. We couldn't afford it and tried everything to get it reduced and tried to get them to work with us and nothing helped.

What I was wondering if there is anyone out there that would be willing to help me out in raising the money or even if someone would be willing to help me out to try to get the money. I would LOVE to stay where I am at and I would be willing to repay anyone that helps us back if it took me the rest of my life if just someone would help us out. We have had so much BAD LUCK and NO ONE that wants to help us including the Mortgage company. We called them so many times and get transferred to so many people and so on and NEVER get any answers. Most of the time we don't even get to talk to an actual person it is a voicemail or recording.

So, all of you know that my mom's boyfriend (husband so to speak been together 18 yrs). has become very ill and lost his job a few years ago and has been looking for work and because he has gotten ill he has not been able to even do that. And with how bad the times are no one will hire him. So, he finally got on medical insurance and was able to finally go to the hospital and doctor's and they are finding out but this is just a start and just get it started in January 2009 but filed for it back in Nov. 2008 and it is just now getting started. So, he has finally got a primary care and he is finding out he has Lymphedema and Nodules in his left leg, severe sleep apnea, Narcolepsy, and we are sure he has other issues but these are just a start. He is also morbid obese as well and has become homebound as well.

My mom is disabled as well and she is having to help take care of me and her hubby (whom I will refer him as) and her brother. She has major issues as well. One like I was telling you she may have cancer but can't find out until March 2009 because of Medicaid will not pick it up because it has not been 6 months. So, she can't find out until than if it is cancer or not. She was diagnosed 2 years ago with NON CANCEROUS CYSTS in the same breast but these new signs are deeper and there are more of them in the same breast. So, we don't know if they are the same ones or if it is cancer. Which I am hoping it is not. She also has 6 herniated disks in her back, Diabetic, high blood pressure and they (diabetes and blood pressure) are uncontrollable even with medicines. She is also a maniac depressed, has anxiety attacks, and panic attacks. She can't be around many people and if she has a spell she has to go and be by herself because of it. She has mood swings as well and maybe Bipolar but has NEVER been diagnosed in having it.

Now we go onto me which most of you know me I have what is called Primary Lyphedema/Elephantiasis in both legs. It is swelling in both legs and you are in a lot of pain and I am prone to infections which I have almost died all ready 4 times from the infections (MRSA-Staph Resistant Infection). I am very morbid obese but try to limit my intake and watch what I eat, I drink water all the time and I try to not eat any bad foods but my problem is being immobile and lack of money to get proper foods to eat that I can eat more than one time a day. Which 90% of the time I only eat 1 or 2 meals a day and that is it. Like today I have not eaten yet but 1 Scrapple & Egg & Cheese Sandwich on Wheat Toast and 2 bottles of Water all ready. I am depressed alot because I have been homebound now for over 6 years and I have not even been out to see a doctor in almost 3 yrs. No doctor will come to my home to see me at all because believe me you I have tried. I am on oxygen 24 hours a day as you can probably all ready be able to tell from my profile picture with my boyfriend (whom I consider my hubby been together 18 yrs as well). I have severe Obstructive Sleep Apnea.

Will continue saving because something is messing up with my computer sorry!!!