Monday, January 12, 2009

Apologizing & Sorry!

Hello and Good Evening Everyone!!

I want to apologize to everyone who has read my post before this one about the house and to everyone who think I am asking for MONEY or handouts as I am NOT. I am just asking for advice at what I may be able to do to try to SAVE the home I am IN NOW because of all that would have to be done to get me out of the home and not counting all the stuff that would have to be moved and costs of living (renting) any other place. It would cost the same amount if not more of what we were paying in the beginning $1200 to rent something around here. Than you have to have First, Second and Last month deposits and than Security deposit as well for most places.

And than alot of people think that it is just so easy to get up and move around and leave my home when it is not that simple as some think. I have tried everything from not eating to help in losing weight to 1500 calories a day but being I am IMMOBILE I can't seem to lose the weight. Which is not the main issue with me not being able to move the legs are the main reason for me not being able to move around.

If you are interested here are some PICTURES of what I am going through with my legs and some pictures of myself being overweight and all.... Some of these are graphic so be warned check them out on your own....

I just wish it was so SIMPLE as to get up everyday without being in so much pain from the swelling in my legs. It isn't that simple but I still manage to get up out of my bed and try to go on with the new day. Everyday is just a challenge to get out of the bed for me. Robert has to help me everytime I get out of the bed and it takes me at least 30 mins to get from the bedroom to the bathroom to the living room if I am going to sit out there for the day.

My day involves sitting so much that it isn't funny and it is not like I want too. I would love to be able to get up and go outside and breathe in fresh air but I have a oxygen tube in my nose 24 hours a day too. Plus, with the other illnesses it would take me over 3 hours to get out of the house if that, short amount of time and when I come back it would take us another 3 hours to get back in the house and than the next day I would not be able to walk to the bathroom at all and if I did I would be crying because of the pain. But than again so many people will say NO PAIN, NO GAIN but I have been in pain now for over 20 years and I have had to try to learn to live the best I can live with what I have.

I have to have help from my mom to even fix me food to eat each day. I have to depend on Robert to have to bath me in my bed and help me with dressings and changing of bandages for my legs so they will not get infected. If I get them infected I could lose my legs or even die because this has happened before where I almost lost my legs and I have almost died as well.

But I am sorry I have not been able to get back online until today to explain and I am sorry that everyone felt like I was asking for them for money and I am NOT. I am just asking for help. Thanks for taking the time to read this and I will try to get on as much as I can but I am trying to save my home so it maybe a few days at a time okay. God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD


Joyce said...

Oh Kat, I went and looked at the photo's. I hope you are under a doctor's care. There must be something they can do to help you. I'm so sorry for you and your situation with the house. Sending more prayers, Joyce

PurpleKatz said...

Thank you very much Joyce!! But at this time NO I do not have any doctor's that take care of me. The really BAD pictures of my leg that is beat red are from when I had MRSA (Staph Resistant Infection) where I almost died and was in ICU for over a week and in the hospital for over 4 weeks. So, I don't have a doctor at this time since I have been homebound for over 5 years. No doctor will come to my home. You have to go to them.

Thanks again so much!! I really do appreciate everything and taking the time to look over the pictures. God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD

Anonymous said...

Kat! It is imperative that you be under medical supervision. I wish I could help you. Can I help you write a letter to your doctor asking for help? You are in an extreme situation here, there simply must be someone somewhere that will take you into their facility to help you get yourself to a weight that you can work with!!!! We could write up a simple letter asking for help, include some photos, tell of your dire situation and just mail and email them to every hospital in your state, and maybe the Mayo Clinic in New York. You have more than obesity going on and you're not healthy enough to try to do this alone.