Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Thinking about everyone & missing you all!

Well, I am would first like to say "SORRY" for not posting in almost a month now. I know I have been really bad and all and I know I should be posting everyday. But with all that has been going on in my life somedays I don't know if I am actually here at all. LOL!

Well, I hope everyone had a great CHRISTMAS and that everything worked out the best for you all. I am going to go ahead and wish you all a very "HAPPY" new year and hope all goes well with you for 2009. I hope it will be a lot better than 2008 was for us all.

Everyone has been having a lot of downs and maybe with the "NEW" president and the "NEW" year coming in everything will be for the "BEST" and everything will turn around but than again we don't know until it happens do we.

Would love to hear about some of your holiday stories. I will have to see if I can find the time to go through and read everyone's journals, but until I can get the house situation straight I don't have time for anything right now. I don't know what we are going to do. I am working with some ladies and hopefully something will come up and figure its way out for us all. Please keep us all in your prayers and I always do for you each and everyone of you in mine.

Well it is OFFICAL my grandmother's Divorce was finalized before Christmas and she has left yet again to go to Florida. It was finalized the Saturday before Christmas. I felt so sorry for my stepfather and his stepfather. He come over at Christmas time (Step-Grandfather) and he was so sad and he signed his Christmas card to my stepfather from your Ex-Dad. Which really upset my stepfather. So, things were really depressing during the holidays. Than the day after Christmas we had to say "GOODBYE" yet again to my Grandmom (well actually she is not my grandmom but I call her my grandmom, she is only my grandmom from my stepfather). She left to go to Florida like I said and she is going to be remarrying within the next month or so. I don't know when yet but I am sure I will find out and when I do I will let you all know.

We had seen her the day before Christmas Eve and that was really hard because I got really upset and than I had to see her again the day after Christmas and that was really hard and I just had to put a hard front up because if I get myself too upset I will make myself sick due to my illness and all I have been doing is crying and crying since I have had to see her. I only seen her to be here for my stepfather and if it was not for him I would have not seen her because I just get so upset over this whole thing because it is not right and it is disguising to me and I think she has done wrong. I love her like she is my very own grandmother by blood but we are not but it still hurts. I am a very emotional type of person and I get attached to people really easily which is really hard on me. LOL!

The last time I had wrote my stepmom's nephew was shot well he signed himself out of the hospital and all and we think that was because we think it was something to do with drugs and all but can't prove it. But he is doing better I guess because no one has called her to let my stepmom know how he is doing so we don't know.

My stepmom is doing good and she had a really great Christmas and that was thanks to us all here who chipped in on a cheap laptop computer because she has brain tumor and don't know how long she will be with us and that is the ONLY thing she had wanted and NO ONE would get it for her. So, we all chipped in on it and got it for her and boy was she so SURPRISED. That really made my day to be able to get that for her and surprise her for once. LOL!

Well, I guess that is all for now and I will try to come back later or tomorrow okay. I have a lot of emails and other stuff to do. Also, New Year's Eve is my mom and stepfather's Anniversary they will be together 18 yrs too. So, I don't know if I will be online until after the first of the new year okay. Hubby has to work tomorrow night and I don't know if he will be home in time to be here at midnight. We didn't spend last year together either but we have been together yet another year and that makes 18 yrs for us too as of Dec. 16th. SO, who know what this year will bring.

Well, I wish the best for you and your family as always and please take care and remember to live today at your fullest because you never know what tomorrow may bring. Also, always remember to tell that special someone in your life how much they mean to you and how much you care about them. Always tell them that you love them and that you mean it. Don't be mad at anyone because being mad is wrong and God will make things right and madness is not good. God bless you all and may you all have a blessed new year. Many hugs and lots of love always, KAT :OD

Monday, December 8, 2008

Another Bad day here in Delaware!

Hello and Good Afternoon Everyone that are reading this blog!!!

Well, today is just another bad day in my neighborhood.

First off my stepmother's nephew was shot 2 times in the chest and had to be air lifted to shock trauma unit at a very well known hospital. They don't know what is going on yet and if he is going to make it or not. The police and FBI are still investigating this due to he was left to die after being shot. So, please say some prayers for him and their family. The nephew's father is also dying from cancer and he could die any day now and this is all he needs. So, the family is up to the hospital by the boys side to find out what is going on. As soon as I know anything I will report it here okay.

Than we got bad news about our home too. They maybe wanting to foreclose on it because my stepfather and mom both got behind due to him losing his job and my mom is disabled like myself. Most of you know that we all live together. I am on disability and my hubby works. So, we all don't get that much due to the fact that we are not married legally and they would calculate the incomes together. So, when my stepfather lost his job and now he is unable to work due to him falling and hurting himself and getting sick with the Narcolepsy and Sleep Apnea we have fallen behind on the mortgage.

We don't know what to do or how to stop what is going to happen. If anyone knows of anything please let us know. Me and Rob would love to buy the house from my stepfather and take over the payments that are lower in rate if we can. That would be so much better than having to try to come up with the high payment my stepfather has now. So, if you all can help out that would be greatly appreciated. As must of you know I am handicapped and more less homebound and have NO means of getting out if we have to move.

I am just so upset and all this happening here at the holidays. That is why I have not been online much because I am not trying to use my online service that much because I am going to have to try to either discontinue it or I am going to have to cut it down or something because I don't know what to do anymore. I just feel like each day in my life it is getting worse and worse and I am getting deeper and deeper into a rut and I can't get out of it. I feel like I am such a USELESS person and can't do anything right anymore. I have a college degree and not able to get or be able to work because of being on oxygen 24 hours a day and in a wheelchair and in so much pain. But I know that there are so many more people out there that are worse off than I am and that is what gets me up everyday.

I am really lose for words and don't know what to say anymore because of this depression that is setting in on me and how I need to get out of this and what I can do to make everything better for me and my family and my health. I just don't know what to do anymore. Please help us all out if you can or know how. Thanks a million and god bless everyone!!! Love you all!! Hugs, KAT :*o(

Friday, December 5, 2008

Sorry for not writing in a while

Sorry Everyone for not writing or being online in a while. I just have had so much going on in my life right now. Everything and anything you can think about is going on.

First my stepfather was rushed to the hospital on 11/18 and than me and rob have been so sick with bronchitis and pneumonia. My mom got a big scare from the doctor's. She has to go and have her breast fully diagnosed at the hospital but because she is on Medicaid she has to wait for the six month's to be up before they can do it again. She may have breast cancer but they can't rule it out until they do these other tests. Which really makes me so upset and mad. She can't have this done until March 2009 that will be the six months.

What else has been going on .. Oh well lets see my doggie has been sick and we had to take her to the vet. That was bad too and it cost us an arm and leg. Oh there just has been so much. Maybe I will be able to go on and on.

Oh yeah my grandmom finally got the divorce from my grandfather after 25 yrs together. She is still up here in Delaware. She come back around Oct. 4, 2008 and has been here since than but that was just to get the divorce finalized. She is leaving again on or right after Christmas if the divorce degree comes in or not. She is engaged to be remarried. Long story I know and it is not right I know but this is what she wants and no one is going to stop her. She is not my real grandmom but she is my stepfather's mom. I have always thought about her as my grandmom though.

Well, what else has been going on that I can write about? Well, if I think about it I will redo this okay. Take care and talk to you all soon. Thanks for everyone that has been really worried about me and I am totally sorry about all this. Take care and love you all. God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD