Thursday, October 30, 2008

Sorry no post yesterday & maybe a short one today!

Well, I am really truly sorry about yesterday. I was so super DEPRESSED that I barely got on the computer and I did do up two tags though. I was really shocked that I did that. I really don't like them but I will show them in a little while. LOL!

I guess I am depressed alot because I am homebounded and in so much pain. But there is nothing really anyone can do for the pain but me to get the weight off and without being able to move around that is not going to happen. I don't eat much as it is and I don't drink anything but WATER and that is it. So, I guess it is just that I don't eat but maybe 1 or 2 meals a day and than I don't exercise but that is because of the pain. But life goes on and we still have to live even if it is from the pain or the weight. There is no need to cry over it but I do get in my moods that I get really depressed and I don't want to be around anyone. But yesterday I wanted to be around my hubby but I couldn't because he was busy working on a car and than he had to go and get supplies for that car. When I was able to go before I would go with him when he got supplies but now that I can't go out now I didn't get to go with him. So, I have been really lonely alot lately. Don't get me wrong I have my mom and stepfather and uncle that live with us but it is not being able to go out and be around other people and especially being around my hubby. It seems like he is always working. He is at work tonight on his day off. We didn't get to spend another week together and this is going on 2 months now. So, that is another reason I am really depressed. It seems like we never see each other but when we got bed and that is no more than 1 hour at the most.

So, I guess it is just me talking a bunch of stuff because most of the time I know it is just me. Or that is what I am told all the time.

I just needed to put this out and all just need to vent. Well, I guess I will for now and go and upload the tags I did yesterday. It took me a few hours just to get 2 tags done and usually it don't take me 15 mins to do a tag. LOL! So, I guess I was really down yesterday. I had a really bad panic attack too yesterday. I couldn't stop crying yesterday and my pain levels were really high like today. But I know why cry over it and all because there isn't anything anyone can do.

Well, I guess I will let you all go and take care and talk to you soon. God bless everyone!! Many hugs and love, KAT :OD

1 comment:

Emmi said...

vent away honey ... this is your space. We're hear to listen.