Sorry have been ill

Hello and Good Evening Everyone!!!

Well, I am not 100% but I am here to let you all know what is going on with me and where I have been. Well, first off I have been really sick with a head/chest cold mostly a chest cold because of me being on oxygen. I could not breathe and I hate this stuff being so sick. Than I got a stomach bug on top of that too.

I am not going to be on for a few more days until I can get better so if you don't hear from me in a while it is because I am still sick. Everyone here is sick even my hubby is sick. Hopefully everyone will be getting better soon. You all take care and sorry I don't have a tag to show you that is new so I will be showing off something old okay. Take care and talk to you soon. God bless you all and thanks for all the "Get Well" wishes and all the concerns. Love you all!!!! Many hugs and love, KAT :OD

Tags made Yesterday (10-29-08) On my Depression Day!

LiLA TOTD Challenge for Monday's 10-27-08 Tag

These where done by me on my very depressed day! What do you all think? If you want them tagged you can click the link with them. Thanks again for everything!! Enjoy!!! Hugs, KAT :OD

LiLA Daily Challenge 4 Monday's 10-27-08 Tag

Sorry no post yesterday & maybe a short one today!

Well, I am really truly sorry about yesterday. I was so super DEPRESSED that I barely got on the computer and I did do up two tags though. I was really shocked that I did that. I really don't like them but I will show them in a little while. LOL!

I guess I am depressed alot because I am homebounded and in so much pain. But there is nothing really anyone can do for the pain but me to get the weight off and without being able to move around that is not going to happen. I don't eat much as it is and I don't drink anything but WATER and that is it. So, I guess it is just that I don't eat but maybe 1 or 2 meals a day and than I don't exercise but that is because of the pain. But life goes on and we still have to live even if it is from the pain or the weight. There is no need to cry over it but I do get in my moods that I get really depressed and I don't want to be around anyone. But yesterday I wanted to be around my hubby but I couldn't because he was busy working on a car and than he had to go and get supplies for that car. When I was able to go before I would go with him when he got supplies but now that I can't go out now I didn't get to go with him. So, I have been really lonely alot lately. Don't get me wrong I have my mom and stepfather and uncle that live with us but it is not being able to go out and be around other people and especially being around my hubby. It seems like he is always working. He is at work tonight on his day off. We didn't get to spend another week together and this is going on 2 months now. So, that is another reason I am really depressed. It seems like we never see each other but when we got bed and that is no more than 1 hour at the most.

So, I guess it is just me talking a bunch of stuff because most of the time I know it is just me. Or that is what I am told all the time.

I just needed to put this out and all just need to vent. Well, I guess I will for now and go and upload the tags I did yesterday. It took me a few hours just to get 2 tags done and usually it don't take me 15 mins to do a tag. LOL! So, I guess I was really down yesterday. I had a really bad panic attack too yesterday. I couldn't stop crying yesterday and my pain levels were really high like today. But I know why cry over it and all because there isn't anything anyone can do.

Well, I guess I will let you all go and take care and talk to you soon. God bless everyone!! Many hugs and love, KAT :OD

Update on Stepmom -- What happen last night & today!

Well, most of you know by now my stepmom has had to have 3 tumors removed from her throat/thyroid area. Well, last night I was talking with my dad and he said that he had to take my stepmom to the doctor's today because her throat area on her neck was swelling up. And it looked like there was blood filling up in there. She tried to take a picture and send it to me. I hope I can get it posted on here.. Well, it post above instead of down here. LOL! But anyway you can see what I am talking about. Well, she went to the doctor today and he said that this is normal because it is the only place the blood can go is down there. I am WHAT how is that? I just don't understand it. She has to go back on Friday or one day this next week. I can't remember what may dad told me today. The reason I was not remembering is because there has been so much going on here today. Sorry picture is not that great but thought I would show you what she sent to me.

My uncle had to go the VA for his renal and diabetes check up. They have changed him all up on his medicines again and so now I have to help him out more with that and we have to record his readings for his diabetes again. This is so much a pain in the butt sometimes. He just turned 61 yrs old and he lives with us and I have to help him out with his medicines because if not he will not either take them or he will take too much. He did that once last week and we had to call the ambulance on him because his blood sugar dropped and went below 40. Where it is suppose to be at least 90 or 120. So, they had to give him a lot of candy, juice and gel sugar and it still only brought it back up to 72. He was like almost into a coma state. So, we have to keep an eye on him at all times. I think he maybe getting Dementia or Alzheimer's. I don't know but that is what I think is going to be happening. His mother had Dementia and was getting Alzheimer's herself before she passed away. So, it could be but I will watch him and take care of him the best that me and my mom know how too.

Well, I guess I will go for now and get ready to spend a little time with my hubby for a change after he gets out of the shower. He stinks so bad that I made he get into the shower because he has been working on cars all day and stinks like grease and oils. Thanks again for taking the time to read and I will talk to you soon. God bless and many hugs, support, prayers and lots of love, KAT :OD

Today has been a very weird day all the way around!

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Well, today has been a very weird day today. There has been so much SADNESS going on in the world and in my life. I can't believe how much has been going on in this life. What is the world coming too I ask everyday.

I was watching Oprah today and seen the most saddest thing I have ever seen. It was called 99 Balloons. You can watch it here... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=th6Njr-qkq0 and it is so sad and you will need a lot of tissues for watching this 6 minute video.

Today on Oprah was about young kids who inspire. It was so sad and even Oprah and Celine were in tears over this video too. It is so amazing how much little children go through and they suffer so much before they are even an adult. This just makes my life feel so not important and makes me feel like a fool because they go through so much and yet they can't say how much pain they have to go through. It makes my pain feel so little.

I still can't believe what happen to Jennifer Hudson's Nephew Julian King. That is totally saddens me so much and just to think about so many other little children who get killed over evil adults that they feel they need to take a life. It is horrible and I just can't understand why so many have to die so young. If it is not one it is 100 and this will keep going on and on in our lives because we can't do anything to prevent it from happening.

Well, I guess this is all for me now I will be back in a few to update on my Stepmom she has something that come up last night and had to go to the doctor today. Well, take care and talk to you soon. God bless and many hugs, support, prayers and lots of love, KAT :OD

Sad & Depressed Monday Evening!

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Well, here it is late Monday Evening and I am just getting on the computer. Boy where did the day go??? I have not been feeling well again today don't know what is going on with me. I was going to get on the computer earlier today but instead I ended up falling asleep on the sofa watching a movie on Lifetime TV. I guess that movie was too good that it actually put me to sleep unless it was because I took some Tylenol and all for the pain. We had a cold front come in today and it got cold and when it gets cold I start to hurt really bad.

Did you all do anything good for the first day of the week?

I was watching the News tonight and it is really sad about Jennifer Hudson's 7 yr old Nephew Julian. What gets into people's heads to make them go on a killing spree?? Like a little 7 yr old kid can do anything to an ADULT it just makes me so mad and it really upsets me so much that this can happen to a young person like this. Is anyone keeping up with this story? I was wondering why Jennifer's mom and brother were shot? What was it over? I heard it was to do with domestic abuse or something. Is this true? I know Jennifer Hudson has to be really upset over this especially when her career is just getting to take off the ground. Do you all know if she was very close to her mom and brother? I know so many questions. LOL!

Sometimes I don't know what makes someone want to kill. How do they actually shoot or stab someone. You really have to be down and out to really do this to another living thing. I hate to even kill a fly or a bug. It is just not right and I don't understand what brings a person to this. Just like so many people have said to me because of me being ill and all. They don't know how they would live with what I have for as long as I have done it because they would have killed themselves by now. I always answer to them with this...

"Why kill yourself? What is that going to solve? You will leave your loved ones and than you will not be able to go to heaven by doing this. Do you think by killing yourself that it is going to make things right or better? No because it is not."

It really upsets me that people would think because of the pain I am in that they would need to kill themselves because they could not put up with the pain and infections and stuff I have been through. But why do that because there are so many other people in this world that are more WORSE than I am and do you see them killing themselves? NO I answer!! So, why would you want to do it. They must have really low self esteem or low pain tolerance or something. It doesn't make any sense to me. Does it to you all?

Again I am sorry for not getting online sooner and doing this but I just have not had the strength to do anything lately. Maybe because I have been depressed too. There are so many things going on in my life right now. Money is the biggest thing of all evil here. There is not enough coming in and too much going out. With the economy the way it is now days I just don't know how anyone is making it. It is not right and maybe sometime soon the world and all of us can come together and get this straightened out. I am praying and hoping for that.

Well, I guess I will go for now and all hubby is just getting home and he is hungry. LOL! Well, you all have a great and blessed day and I will talk to you again tomorrow I am hoping. Hubby is home tomorrow but he has to work on his side job for Tomorrow, Wednesday and Thursday. I don't know if I will get any alone time with him again this week. Very sad over that because we have not had alone time together except for when we go to bed and that is no longer than an hour a day in over a month or better. Really getting lonely here.

Well, you all be good and don't get into any trouble now. Be nice and make sure you always tell your loved ones that you really love with all your heart and soul and give them all big hugs and kisses from you and from me. God bless you always and forever!! With all my love, support, prayers and hugs to your family from mine, KAT :OD

What to talk about today (Sunday) Evening?

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Well, what to talk about today? I don't have much to say because of the pain I am in but I do have to tell you about my stepmother. My real dad was here today to visit me and all. He was telling me she was home resting but she is in a lot of pain now because of not having any pain pills. So, he stayed here for about 2 hours today to let her rest and get some sleep she really needs because she has been hovering over him like nothing is wrong with her and trying to do stuff she is not suppose to be doing. She is a what do you call them people that has to be in control all the time and doing stuff herself because no one can do it right but her? So that is why he left for a little while. They have their good and bad days together. But that is with any couple though. LOL!

Me and my dad had a good time this afternoon because we talked about all the old times and my dad was finally my dad for once. It was really great to see him in a good mood. Usually me and my dad don't get along because we always butt heads because we both are too much alike each other. So, it was good to be able to talk about memories and the best including the good and the bad. LOL! But he will always be hyper as ever. I don't know how he can be so hyper as he is. Boy he can get really loud too and after he left I had to take some tylenol for my headache from him getting so loud. I think he is getting something wrong with his hearing because he does talk too loud I think.

Also, while I was on the computer today I fixed up a little something with me and Rob on it for my Profile. Let me know what you all think about it. I usually do not put my picture on the internet but I think it is time to do that. LOL! I know I am very UGLY and very FAT so please don't comment on that. I know what I am and I can't do anything about it right now until I can get my illness under control. Thank you very much for taking the time to look over everything and for keeping up with all my talking. LOL! I know at times I can go on and on. LOL! Well, I hope you like some of the tags I am putting on here each time I post because this is stuff I have made or stuff I really enjoy!!

Well, I guess am going to make it short tonight. I think I will go and watch some TV because Extreme Home Makeover is on and than Cold Case is on and than my favorite show is Army Wives at 10pm eastern time. Boy do I love that. LOL! I can't wait and I am so upset because it is only 1 episode away from the season finale. I don't know what I will do without my Army Wives fix every Sunday. LOL! Well, take care everyone and have a great and blessed evening!! God bless you all and talk to you soon!! Many hugs and lots of love, KAT :OD