Sorry no post yesterday & maybe a short one today!

Well, I am really truly sorry about yesterday. I was so super DEPRESSED that I barely got on the computer and I did do up two tags though. I was really shocked that I did that. I really don't like them but I will show them in a little while. LOL!

I guess I am depressed alot because I am homebounded and in so much pain. But there is nothing really anyone can do for the pain but me to get the weight off and without being able to move around that is not going to happen. I don't eat much as it is and I don't drink anything but WATER and that is it. So, I guess it is just that I don't eat but maybe 1 or 2 meals a day and than I don't exercise but that is because of the pain. But life goes on and we still have to live even if it is from the pain or the weight. There is no need to cry over it but I do get in my moods that I get really depressed and I don't want to be around anyone. But yesterday I wanted to be around my hubby but I couldn't because he was busy working on a car and than he had to go and get supplies for that car. When I was able to go before I would go with him when he got supplies but now that I can't go out now I didn't get to go with him. So, I have been really lonely alot lately. Don't get me wrong I have my mom and stepfather and uncle that live with us but it is not being able to go out and be around other people and especially being around my hubby. It seems like he is always working. He is at work tonight on his day off. We didn't get to spend another week together and this is going on 2 months now. So, that is another reason I am really depressed. It seems like we never see each other but when we got bed and that is no more than 1 hour at the most.

So, I guess it is just me talking a bunch of stuff because most of the time I know it is just me. Or that is what I am told all the time.

I just needed to put this out and all just need to vent. Well, I guess I will for now and go and upload the tags I did yesterday. It took me a few hours just to get 2 tags done and usually it don't take me 15 mins to do a tag. LOL! So, I guess I was really down yesterday. I had a really bad panic attack too yesterday. I couldn't stop crying yesterday and my pain levels were really high like today. But I know why cry over it and all because there isn't anything anyone can do.

Well, I guess I will let you all go and take care and talk to you soon. God bless everyone!! Many hugs and love, KAT :OD

Today has been a very weird day all the way around!

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Well, today has been a very weird day today. There has been so much SADNESS going on in the world and in my life. I can't believe how much has been going on in this life. What is the world coming too I ask everyday.

I was watching Oprah today and seen the most saddest thing I have ever seen. It was called 99 Balloons. You can watch it here... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=th6Njr-qkq0 and it is so sad and you will need a lot of tissues for watching this 6 minute video.

Today on Oprah was about young kids who inspire. It was so sad and even Oprah and Celine were in tears over this video too. It is so amazing how much little children go through and they suffer so much before they are even an adult. This just makes my life feel so not important and makes me feel like a fool because they go through so much and yet they can't say how much pain they have to go through. It makes my pain feel so little.

I still can't believe what happen to Jennifer Hudson's Nephew Julian King. That is totally saddens me so much and just to think about so many other little children who get killed over evil adults that they feel they need to take a life. It is horrible and I just can't understand why so many have to die so young. If it is not one it is 100 and this will keep going on and on in our lives because we can't do anything to prevent it from happening.

Well, I guess this is all for me now I will be back in a few to update on my Stepmom she has something that come up last night and had to go to the doctor today. Well, take care and talk to you soon. God bless and many hugs, support, prayers and lots of love, KAT :OD

Sorry Last Post 4 Tonight -- Very Sad News!

Don't know who made this last one but thank you Roxy for the top one!! Sorry I can't get them to change areas. LOL!

Well, this is going to be the last past I make tonight but I thought I would let everyone know the bad news we just got tonight. One of my hubby's co-workers just passed away from Cancer. He was only in his 60's. Rob (Hubby) had been friends with him now over 2 yrs and they got really close because he worked with him everyday.

This is really sad and my hubby is really upset over this. I know he is going to try to go to the funeral and all. Just to give the family the support and prayers.

Just thought you all should know because you all have been here through all this and have been here listening. Boy can I have some ups and downs in my life. Today has been one of those days I guess.

Also, tomorrow 10/23/08 is my Uncle who lives with me his BIRTHDAY so I don't know if I will be online much okay so don't be scared if you don't see me wrote anything. LOL! But I will try to be on to let you all know about my Stepmother okay. Take care you all and please make sure to give them hugs to all the loved ones and from me. OK!

God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD

Today is a sad day for me & my family!

Tag made by Roxy aka Shelly (Thanks for this beautiful tag!)

Today is a sad day because 1 yr today is the day that my best friend passed on to Heaven to be with God. She was only 37 yrs old when she passed away. Her name was Belinda Fulmer and we had been friends online for over 10 yrs and we lived miles away from each other. Yet it seemed like sisters and that we had known each other for eternity. But yet we had never seen each other in our whole time we known each other we still stay very close and talked almost everyday until she got really bad off.

So, today out of the blue I got a call from her husband. He was really upset and need someone to talk too because he don't really have many friends and his family is all gone except for his stepmother and he don't get to see her that much. So, we talked for over an hour and we cried and than we laughed about all the good times we had with Belinda.

Than I found out today too that my stepmother is going to have to go and have surgery tomorrow 10/23/08 on removal of 3 tumors in her throat / thyroid area. They don't know if they are cancerous or not but they are going in to remove them. She has just gotten done from having surgery on her foot where they have to repair it that had a hole in there and they had to pack it with bone marrow. Than they had to remove the tumor in it as well. Thank goodness it was not cancerous at all. She is still healing from it and had gotten an infection from that and just got off the antibiotics like less than 2 weeks ago and now is having to go into surgery on this other tomorrow. I really have been feeling bad about this surgery and don't know why.

So, as you can tell today has been really one of those days and it don't look like it is going to get any better because I am still in a lot of pain from where I popped my bad leg's knee out and have not been able to bare any weight on it for the past 3 days. I don't know what is going on with here lately. I am only 34 yrs old and feel like I am a 134 yrs old. LOL!

Well, I will let you go for now and talk to you soon again! Love you always and forever everyone!! Live today to its fullest because you never know what tomorrow will bring.
God bless and many hugs, KAT