Hello and Good Evening Everyone!!
I want to apologize to everyone who has read my post before this one about the house and to everyone who think I am asking for MONEY or handouts as I am NOT. I am just asking for advice at what I may be able to do to try to SAVE the home I am IN NOW because of all that would have to be done to get me out of the home and not counting all the stuff that would have to be moved and costs of living (renting) any other place. It would cost the same amount if not more of what we were paying in the beginning $1200 to rent something around here. Than you have to have First, Second and Last month deposits and than Security deposit as well for most places.
And than alot of people think that it is just so easy to get up and move around and leave my home when it is not that simple as some think. I have tried everything from not eating to help in losing weight to 1500 calories a day but being I am IMMOBILE I can't seem to lose the weight. Which is not the main issue with me not being able to move the legs are the main reason for me not being able to move around.
If you are interested here are some PICTURES of what I am going through with my legs and some pictures of myself being overweight and all.... Some of these are graphic so be warned check them out on your own....
http://s428.photobucket.com/albums/qq3/KShelman/
I just wish it was so SIMPLE as to get up everyday without being in so much pain from the swelling in my legs. It isn't that simple but I still manage to get up out of my bed and try to go on with the new day. Everyday is just a challenge to get out of the bed for me. Robert has to help me everytime I get out of the bed and it takes me at least 30 mins to get from the bedroom to the bathroom to the living room if I am going to sit out there for the day.
My day involves sitting so much that it isn't funny and it is not like I want too. I would love to be able to get up and go outside and breathe in fresh air but I have a oxygen tube in my nose 24 hours a day too. Plus, with the other illnesses it would take me over 3 hours to get out of the house if that, short amount of time and when I come back it would take us another 3 hours to get back in the house and than the next day I would not be able to walk to the bathroom at all and if I did I would be crying because of the pain. But than again so many people will say NO PAIN, NO GAIN but I have been in pain now for over 20 years and I have had to try to learn to live the best I can live with what I have.
I have to have help from my mom to even fix me food to eat each day. I have to depend on Robert to have to bath me in my bed and help me with dressings and changing of bandages for my legs so they will not get infected. If I get them infected I could lose my legs or even die because this has happened before where I almost lost my legs and I have almost died as well.
But I am sorry I have not been able to get back online until today to explain and I am sorry that everyone felt like I was asking for them for money and I am NOT. I am just asking for help. Thanks for taking the time to read this and I will try to get on as much as I can but I am trying to save my home so it maybe a few days at a time okay. God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD
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Monday, January 12, 2009
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Thinking about everyone & missing you all!
Well, I am would first like to say "SORRY" for not posting in almost a month now. I know I have been really bad and all and I know I should be posting everyday. But with all that has been going on in my life somedays I don't know if I am actually here at all. LOL!
Well, I hope everyone had a great CHRISTMAS and that everything worked out the best for you all. I am going to go ahead and wish you all a very "HAPPY" new year and hope all goes well with you for 2009. I hope it will be a lot better than 2008 was for us all.
Everyone has been having a lot of downs and maybe with the "NEW" president and the "NEW" year coming in everything will be for the "BEST" and everything will turn around but than again we don't know until it happens do we.
Would love to hear about some of your holiday stories. I will have to see if I can find the time to go through and read everyone's journals, but until I can get the house situation straight I don't have time for anything right now. I don't know what we are going to do. I am working with some ladies and hopefully something will come up and figure its way out for us all. Please keep us all in your prayers and I always do for you each and everyone of you in mine.
Well it is OFFICAL my grandmother's Divorce was finalized before Christmas and she has left yet again to go to Florida. It was finalized the Saturday before Christmas. I felt so sorry for my stepfather and his stepfather. He come over at Christmas time (Step-Grandfather) and he was so sad and he signed his Christmas card to my stepfather from your Ex-Dad. Which really upset my stepfather. So, things were really depressing during the holidays. Than the day after Christmas we had to say "GOODBYE" yet again to my Grandmom (well actually she is not my grandmom but I call her my grandmom, she is only my grandmom from my stepfather). She left to go to Florida like I said and she is going to be remarrying within the next month or so. I don't know when yet but I am sure I will find out and when I do I will let you all know.
We had seen her the day before Christmas Eve and that was really hard because I got really upset and than I had to see her again the day after Christmas and that was really hard and I just had to put a hard front up because if I get myself too upset I will make myself sick due to my illness and all I have been doing is crying and crying since I have had to see her. I only seen her to be here for my stepfather and if it was not for him I would have not seen her because I just get so upset over this whole thing because it is not right and it is disguising to me and I think she has done wrong. I love her like she is my very own grandmother by blood but we are not but it still hurts. I am a very emotional type of person and I get attached to people really easily which is really hard on me. LOL!
The last time I had wrote my stepmom's nephew was shot well he signed himself out of the hospital and all and we think that was because we think it was something to do with drugs and all but can't prove it. But he is doing better I guess because no one has called her to let my stepmom know how he is doing so we don't know.
My stepmom is doing good and she had a really great Christmas and that was thanks to us all here who chipped in on a cheap laptop computer because she has brain tumor and don't know how long she will be with us and that is the ONLY thing she had wanted and NO ONE would get it for her. So, we all chipped in on it and got it for her and boy was she so SURPRISED. That really made my day to be able to get that for her and surprise her for once. LOL!
Well, I guess that is all for now and I will try to come back later or tomorrow okay. I have a lot of emails and other stuff to do. Also, New Year's Eve is my mom and stepfather's Anniversary they will be together 18 yrs too. So, I don't know if I will be online until after the first of the new year okay. Hubby has to work tomorrow night and I don't know if he will be home in time to be here at midnight. We didn't spend last year together either but we have been together yet another year and that makes 18 yrs for us too as of Dec. 16th. SO, who know what this year will bring.
Well, I wish the best for you and your family as always and please take care and remember to live today at your fullest because you never know what tomorrow may bring. Also, always remember to tell that special someone in your life how much they mean to you and how much you care about them. Always tell them that you love them and that you mean it. Don't be mad at anyone because being mad is wrong and God will make things right and madness is not good. God bless you all and may you all have a blessed new year. Many hugs and lots of love always, KAT :OD
Well, I hope everyone had a great CHRISTMAS and that everything worked out the best for you all. I am going to go ahead and wish you all a very "HAPPY" new year and hope all goes well with you for 2009. I hope it will be a lot better than 2008 was for us all.
Everyone has been having a lot of downs and maybe with the "NEW" president and the "NEW" year coming in everything will be for the "BEST" and everything will turn around but than again we don't know until it happens do we.
Would love to hear about some of your holiday stories. I will have to see if I can find the time to go through and read everyone's journals, but until I can get the house situation straight I don't have time for anything right now. I don't know what we are going to do. I am working with some ladies and hopefully something will come up and figure its way out for us all. Please keep us all in your prayers and I always do for you each and everyone of you in mine.
Well it is OFFICAL my grandmother's Divorce was finalized before Christmas and she has left yet again to go to Florida. It was finalized the Saturday before Christmas. I felt so sorry for my stepfather and his stepfather. He come over at Christmas time (Step-Grandfather) and he was so sad and he signed his Christmas card to my stepfather from your Ex-Dad. Which really upset my stepfather. So, things were really depressing during the holidays. Than the day after Christmas we had to say "GOODBYE" yet again to my Grandmom (well actually she is not my grandmom but I call her my grandmom, she is only my grandmom from my stepfather). She left to go to Florida like I said and she is going to be remarrying within the next month or so. I don't know when yet but I am sure I will find out and when I do I will let you all know.
We had seen her the day before Christmas Eve and that was really hard because I got really upset and than I had to see her again the day after Christmas and that was really hard and I just had to put a hard front up because if I get myself too upset I will make myself sick due to my illness and all I have been doing is crying and crying since I have had to see her. I only seen her to be here for my stepfather and if it was not for him I would have not seen her because I just get so upset over this whole thing because it is not right and it is disguising to me and I think she has done wrong. I love her like she is my very own grandmother by blood but we are not but it still hurts. I am a very emotional type of person and I get attached to people really easily which is really hard on me. LOL!
The last time I had wrote my stepmom's nephew was shot well he signed himself out of the hospital and all and we think that was because we think it was something to do with drugs and all but can't prove it. But he is doing better I guess because no one has called her to let my stepmom know how he is doing so we don't know.
My stepmom is doing good and she had a really great Christmas and that was thanks to us all here who chipped in on a cheap laptop computer because she has brain tumor and don't know how long she will be with us and that is the ONLY thing she had wanted and NO ONE would get it for her. So, we all chipped in on it and got it for her and boy was she so SURPRISED. That really made my day to be able to get that for her and surprise her for once. LOL!
Well, I guess that is all for now and I will try to come back later or tomorrow okay. I have a lot of emails and other stuff to do. Also, New Year's Eve is my mom and stepfather's Anniversary they will be together 18 yrs too. So, I don't know if I will be online until after the first of the new year okay. Hubby has to work tomorrow night and I don't know if he will be home in time to be here at midnight. We didn't spend last year together either but we have been together yet another year and that makes 18 yrs for us too as of Dec. 16th. SO, who know what this year will bring.
Well, I wish the best for you and your family as always and please take care and remember to live today at your fullest because you never know what tomorrow may bring. Also, always remember to tell that special someone in your life how much they mean to you and how much you care about them. Always tell them that you love them and that you mean it. Don't be mad at anyone because being mad is wrong and God will make things right and madness is not good. God bless you all and may you all have a blessed new year. Many hugs and lots of love always, KAT :OD
Friday, December 5, 2008
Sorry for not writing in a while
Sorry Everyone for not writing or being online in a while. I just have had so much going on in my life right now. Everything and anything you can think about is going on.
First my stepfather was rushed to the hospital on 11/18 and than me and rob have been so sick with bronchitis and pneumonia. My mom got a big scare from the doctor's. She has to go and have her breast fully diagnosed at the hospital but because she is on Medicaid she has to wait for the six month's to be up before they can do it again. She may have breast cancer but they can't rule it out until they do these other tests. Which really makes me so upset and mad. She can't have this done until March 2009 that will be the six months.
What else has been going on .. Oh well lets see my doggie has been sick and we had to take her to the vet. That was bad too and it cost us an arm and leg. Oh there just has been so much. Maybe I will be able to go on and on.
Oh yeah my grandmom finally got the divorce from my grandfather after 25 yrs together. She is still up here in Delaware. She come back around Oct. 4, 2008 and has been here since than but that was just to get the divorce finalized. She is leaving again on or right after Christmas if the divorce degree comes in or not. She is engaged to be remarried. Long story I know and it is not right I know but this is what she wants and no one is going to stop her. She is not my real grandmom but she is my stepfather's mom. I have always thought about her as my grandmom though.
Well, what else has been going on that I can write about? Well, if I think about it I will redo this okay. Take care and talk to you all soon. Thanks for everyone that has been really worried about me and I am totally sorry about all this. Take care and love you all. God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD
First my stepfather was rushed to the hospital on 11/18 and than me and rob have been so sick with bronchitis and pneumonia. My mom got a big scare from the doctor's. She has to go and have her breast fully diagnosed at the hospital but because she is on Medicaid she has to wait for the six month's to be up before they can do it again. She may have breast cancer but they can't rule it out until they do these other tests. Which really makes me so upset and mad. She can't have this done until March 2009 that will be the six months.
What else has been going on .. Oh well lets see my doggie has been sick and we had to take her to the vet. That was bad too and it cost us an arm and leg. Oh there just has been so much. Maybe I will be able to go on and on.
Oh yeah my grandmom finally got the divorce from my grandfather after 25 yrs together. She is still up here in Delaware. She come back around Oct. 4, 2008 and has been here since than but that was just to get the divorce finalized. She is leaving again on or right after Christmas if the divorce degree comes in or not. She is engaged to be remarried. Long story I know and it is not right I know but this is what she wants and no one is going to stop her. She is not my real grandmom but she is my stepfather's mom. I have always thought about her as my grandmom though.
Well, what else has been going on that I can write about? Well, if I think about it I will redo this okay. Take care and talk to you all soon. Thanks for everyone that has been really worried about me and I am totally sorry about all this. Take care and love you all. God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD
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