Sad & Depressed Monday Evening!

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Well, here it is late Monday Evening and I am just getting on the computer. Boy where did the day go??? I have not been feeling well again today don't know what is going on with me. I was going to get on the computer earlier today but instead I ended up falling asleep on the sofa watching a movie on Lifetime TV. I guess that movie was too good that it actually put me to sleep unless it was because I took some Tylenol and all for the pain. We had a cold front come in today and it got cold and when it gets cold I start to hurt really bad.

Did you all do anything good for the first day of the week?

I was watching the News tonight and it is really sad about Jennifer Hudson's 7 yr old Nephew Julian. What gets into people's heads to make them go on a killing spree?? Like a little 7 yr old kid can do anything to an ADULT it just makes me so mad and it really upsets me so much that this can happen to a young person like this. Is anyone keeping up with this story? I was wondering why Jennifer's mom and brother were shot? What was it over? I heard it was to do with domestic abuse or something. Is this true? I know Jennifer Hudson has to be really upset over this especially when her career is just getting to take off the ground. Do you all know if she was very close to her mom and brother? I know so many questions. LOL!

Sometimes I don't know what makes someone want to kill. How do they actually shoot or stab someone. You really have to be down and out to really do this to another living thing. I hate to even kill a fly or a bug. It is just not right and I don't understand what brings a person to this. Just like so many people have said to me because of me being ill and all. They don't know how they would live with what I have for as long as I have done it because they would have killed themselves by now. I always answer to them with this...

"Why kill yourself? What is that going to solve? You will leave your loved ones and than you will not be able to go to heaven by doing this. Do you think by killing yourself that it is going to make things right or better? No because it is not."

It really upsets me that people would think because of the pain I am in that they would need to kill themselves because they could not put up with the pain and infections and stuff I have been through. But why do that because there are so many other people in this world that are more WORSE than I am and do you see them killing themselves? NO I answer!! So, why would you want to do it. They must have really low self esteem or low pain tolerance or something. It doesn't make any sense to me. Does it to you all?

Again I am sorry for not getting online sooner and doing this but I just have not had the strength to do anything lately. Maybe because I have been depressed too. There are so many things going on in my life right now. Money is the biggest thing of all evil here. There is not enough coming in and too much going out. With the economy the way it is now days I just don't know how anyone is making it. It is not right and maybe sometime soon the world and all of us can come together and get this straightened out. I am praying and hoping for that.

Well, I guess I will go for now and all hubby is just getting home and he is hungry. LOL! Well, you all have a great and blessed day and I will talk to you again tomorrow I am hoping. Hubby is home tomorrow but he has to work on his side job for Tomorrow, Wednesday and Thursday. I don't know if I will get any alone time with him again this week. Very sad over that because we have not had alone time together except for when we go to bed and that is no longer than an hour a day in over a month or better. Really getting lonely here.

Well, you all be good and don't get into any trouble now. Be nice and make sure you always tell your loved ones that you really love with all your heart and soul and give them all big hugs and kisses from you and from me. God bless you always and forever!! With all my love, support, prayers and hugs to your family from mine, KAT :OD

Just a little Chat today - Cuz in a lot of Pain!

Well, I am sorry I have not been online much today but I have been under the weather because one it is pouring outside. I can't believe how hard it is raining and than it started to lightning and thunder. My poor dogs are so scared of thunder and lightning. LOL! Do you all have any dogs that are like that?

Well, No news on my stepmom today except my dad said she is sleeping and is hurting in the throat pretty bad but that is I am taking from what she ate for dinner last night. But my dad is telling me that the doctor didn't give her an pain meds to come home with so that maybe one of the reasons as well. So she is just sleeping most of the day and I have not talked to her personally since the other night when she was in the hospital. I just don't understand why my dad would take and get her Chinese Food last night for dinner and she got the hardest food that you can get which was Shrimp Fried Rice and Fried Chicken Wings. It just don't make NO sense at all.

What have you all been doing today? Nothing for me but laying back on the sofa most of the day because of the pain I have been in with my legs and knees. My hubby changed my wrapping on my bad leg last night and when he did he hurt my knee even more. It wasn't his fault though when he went to lift my leg up it just popped again. He didn't do anything but lift it up.

I am really happy that my leg is healing up pretty good since I had the open wounds on it so hopefully that will be able to take the bandages and wrap off it soon but I am very doubtful because whenever I do it just breaks back open everytime within a week. My skin on my legs are too sensitive and very weak so they just break back open everytime. Oh if you don't know I have what is called "PRIMARY LYMPHEDEMA" in both of my legs. It is where you lymph nodes are no longer working and they hold in the lymphatic fluid in my legs and they swell up. I am not sure what the correct term it is but that is what I know off hand without looking it up on the computer. LOL!

Maybe someday I will be brave enough and show you all my legs and what I have to go through it is not a very pretty picture at all. But that is something I have to decide if I want to share on the blog. LOL!

Also, if you all didn't see what I make yesterday on the LiLA group on AOL I will set it up on here so if you want to have it you can snag it or I can tag it for you. I will do that on the next post I do for here tonight. OK! I am sorry I didn't do a post last night but I got too involved in making that Blinkie Mania Tag for Halloween and it has a Mummy on it. I did make one that is non animated as well. Maybe I will put both of them on there for you all.

My hubby just called me from work and he said that he has gotten so WET from all the RAIN we have had all day. He is a Valet Driver for the local Slot place we have. He makes only $8 an hour and tips but the tips can range from $20 to $200 a day which he has not seen anything over $100 in a long time per day. Yesterday because he went to the funeral and all of his Co-Worker he only brought home with him was $20. And he worked a 6 hours shift compared to his 10 hours he usually works everyday.

Well, he was telling me that the Funeral he went to yesterday was really weird and different compared to the ones he normally goes too. He said there was NO Body, NO Pictures and NO Flowers. There was a priest, people who talked about his co-worker and than the family and all. But he said it was totally different and it went really fast. You should see the Memorial Card they are suppose to get it is no bigger than a half of a post card in size and than it is only a little something on one side and than a picture on the front and that is it. I don't know if they cremated him or what it was really strange. LOL!

Well, I guess I will go for now but I hope everyone has been having a great and blessed day. Hopefully your Sunday will be better than your Saturday or I hope it is for me and everyone here in Delaware.

Got a question for you all how come I have so much trouble with this blog doing what I want it to do? I either get double or triple spaces between paragraphs or I can't get my pictures to work. It is just one thing after another. Do you all have all these blog issues as well? Please help me on this. Maybe I am doing something wrong. Well, I guess I am going to go and sorry my picture is not animated it is suppose to be a picture of RAIN but that is not working. LOL! Take care and talk to you all soon. Much love, support, prayers and love, KAT :OD