I am very upset and down and out yet again today.
First off last night I didn't sleep well because I was up all night with muscle cramps in both my legs. They were so severe that I fell out of the bed trying to get them to stop cramping up. I am taking Potassium pills and Vitamin E everyday. I am eating vegetables and very light salt here and there but I am still getting the leg cramps. Well, that started my day off.
Than my stepfather was calling and calling me on the phone all morning wanting me to get up. Well, I didn't feel good because of being up all night so I didn't want to get up but he kept calling me. So, finally I got up at around 1pm today. I know I am so bad but what can you do if you don't get to sleep after 5am in the morning with all the cramps.
Anyway, when I got up I heard the phone ringing this morning but I just let it go to the answering machine well, because I did the lady that was trying to help us to get a mortgage gets someone else to call and tell us that there isn't anyway they can help us out. She leads us on about my mom and boyfriend coming in last Friday to sign paper work and because I told her on her answering machine on Monday that we needed to get things done within 1 months time. So, today I get a call not from her but someone else telling me that there isn't anyway they can help us out. What gets me is that they tell you one thing and because you ask them to help you to get all this done in 1 month or so they are like oh no we can't help you now. What the heck is going on there?? It doesn't make any sense to me.
Than it seems like so much is going on and on in our lives besides having to move. I can't believe what everyone wants from us and everyone is awhere of us having to move and no one wants to help us out but they want us to help them out with money and food and stuff and we have to have money to move. I just don't know what to do anymore. Do you say "NO" to them or do you help them out and than don't get any help in return and just keep giving out?
Rob had off today but he had to go to work to get them to straighten out his paycheck because they didn't put in for his sick time and we really need it because he had vacation time he had to use during his sickness. Thank goodness he had vacation time so he didn't lose any money. I don't know what we would have done if he didn't have any vacation time. We would not be eating or able to have any supplies for bathroom(toilet paper, shampoo, and soap). It is really hard with him being the soul provider in the family. Than he got bills from the doctor and imagining place that did xrays when he was sick. But he shouldn't got them because he has Coventry and some other insurance and it is suppose to be paying over 100% of his bills. So, he had to take that in as well. They said it has all ready been paid and don't know why they are sending him any bills. So, hopefully that will be worked out.
Well, I guess it is getting late and all so I guess I will sign off for now but you all take care and talk to you again tomorrow okay. I will be sure that I sign on to talk to you all more tomorrow okay. Love you all and many hugs and blessings!!! God bless you all! KAT :OD
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Sunday, February 15, 2009
It's Me & I'm back but not sure for how long...
Well, I am sorry I have not been around much but hubby had off for his vacation from work from Feb. 3 thru Feb. 13. So during this time we all have been packing because we thought we were going to have to be out by the 6th of Feb. But luckily enough we didn't have to get out by than. But we do have most of the stuff packed up and in a Mobile Storage POD.
SO, during this time that we have been packing and getting stuff ready we got visited by a Local TV station to talk about foreclosures on homes but I was really disappointed at the angle they went with the story and we only got to talk like maybe 20 seconds at the most and it was nothing really what I said or what I wanted to be said. But least to say we were on TV.
Than during this time while Rob was on vacation we were visited by a Realtor for the mortgage company. He was really nice and very pleasant to talk too. He is going to try to help us get as much time as he can with staying here because he seen that there are several people here that are disabled and really unable to get out that fast. The main one is me. So, he said he is going to see what he can do for us and is suppose to contact us this coming week sometime. So, keep us in your prayers that they are not going to force us out and all because if so I am going to fight them until they get an eviction notice on me to get out.
Also, while Rob was on vacation I had a very severe nose bleed. This was one of many that I have been having lately. But this one was the WORST of them all. My nose bleed for over 1 hour and it was coming out so fast and out both nostrils that I was getting choked feeling because it was backing into my throat. I tried everything from ice packs, the silver knife in the middle of your back and to pinching your nose off and tilting it back. Nothing worked at all and I went through 1 whole roll of toilet paper, 2 bath wash clothes, and 2 ice packs. And it finally stopped after 1 hour of bleeding. I was really scared and my mom and Rob thought that they were going to have to call the ambulance because it was not stopping. After that happen I got really weak and had severe pains in my head afterwards. My real dad said that it is good that I bleed because I could have had a stroke or heart attack.
So, what else has been going on. LOL! There has been so much. My real dad and his girlfriedn(Wife) are having a hard time and fighting and I think she is trying to push my dad away from her. See she has a brain tumor and is not all there and thinks my dad is no good at times and goes through these spells and all. So, I don't know what my dad is going to do next. I don't know if he is going to stay with her or if he is going to leave so he has been hanging around my house a lot lately. Matter of fact he just left again for the 2nd time today. He was here early this morning for over 3 hours and than he left to go to a friend's house to help him out and than he come back by here and was here for another hour or so and just now leaving here at 5:35p eastern time. LOL!
Rob is finally back to work and I am missing him because I really do enjoy having him around me because he helps me out so much and can keep me calm when I get upset or mad or what have you. He can always cheer me up when I am down. I just wish we had so much money we didn't have to have him work. Because it would be so nice to have him home all the time. But I know that will NEVER happen in my life time. LOL!
I hope everyone had a great Valentine's Day yesterday. My mom and stepfather got me a purple plush bear (little) & a box of chocolate candy (which I didn't need) but that was so nice of them. I was not expecting it and I just started crying and crying. I have a very soft heart and emotions right now. I was upset because I was not able to get them anything in return. SO, Rob went to Walmart and got some Mix Candy Bears and I split them up with my mom, stepfather and uncle and did them a good bag up for Valentine's Day and I made Homemade cards as well with Pink Ribbon I had here. It was cute but it was the thought that counts I guess. I didn't have much money to get everyone something separate so I just did it that way. It cost Rob maybe $5 for all three but at least it was from my heart. Rob got me a Teddy Bear that has the year on the foot from Walmart and that was really sweet. He always does that every year. I didn't get to get him anything at all but I did up a bag of candy and card for him so that is what I got him but actually he bought it. But it was from my heart though.
Well, I guess I will let you all go for now and thanks for taking the time to read all this and appreciate all the wonderful comments and thoughts on everything so please keep them coming in and please by all means email me at anytime you want. I will try to get to you as soon as I can okay. Take care and talk to you all soon. God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD
SO, during this time that we have been packing and getting stuff ready we got visited by a Local TV station to talk about foreclosures on homes but I was really disappointed at the angle they went with the story and we only got to talk like maybe 20 seconds at the most and it was nothing really what I said or what I wanted to be said. But least to say we were on TV.
Than during this time while Rob was on vacation we were visited by a Realtor for the mortgage company. He was really nice and very pleasant to talk too. He is going to try to help us get as much time as he can with staying here because he seen that there are several people here that are disabled and really unable to get out that fast. The main one is me. So, he said he is going to see what he can do for us and is suppose to contact us this coming week sometime. So, keep us in your prayers that they are not going to force us out and all because if so I am going to fight them until they get an eviction notice on me to get out.
Also, while Rob was on vacation I had a very severe nose bleed. This was one of many that I have been having lately. But this one was the WORST of them all. My nose bleed for over 1 hour and it was coming out so fast and out both nostrils that I was getting choked feeling because it was backing into my throat. I tried everything from ice packs, the silver knife in the middle of your back and to pinching your nose off and tilting it back. Nothing worked at all and I went through 1 whole roll of toilet paper, 2 bath wash clothes, and 2 ice packs. And it finally stopped after 1 hour of bleeding. I was really scared and my mom and Rob thought that they were going to have to call the ambulance because it was not stopping. After that happen I got really weak and had severe pains in my head afterwards. My real dad said that it is good that I bleed because I could have had a stroke or heart attack.
So, what else has been going on. LOL! There has been so much. My real dad and his girlfriedn(Wife) are having a hard time and fighting and I think she is trying to push my dad away from her. See she has a brain tumor and is not all there and thinks my dad is no good at times and goes through these spells and all. So, I don't know what my dad is going to do next. I don't know if he is going to stay with her or if he is going to leave so he has been hanging around my house a lot lately. Matter of fact he just left again for the 2nd time today. He was here early this morning for over 3 hours and than he left to go to a friend's house to help him out and than he come back by here and was here for another hour or so and just now leaving here at 5:35p eastern time. LOL!
Rob is finally back to work and I am missing him because I really do enjoy having him around me because he helps me out so much and can keep me calm when I get upset or mad or what have you. He can always cheer me up when I am down. I just wish we had so much money we didn't have to have him work. Because it would be so nice to have him home all the time. But I know that will NEVER happen in my life time. LOL!
I hope everyone had a great Valentine's Day yesterday. My mom and stepfather got me a purple plush bear (little) & a box of chocolate candy (which I didn't need) but that was so nice of them. I was not expecting it and I just started crying and crying. I have a very soft heart and emotions right now. I was upset because I was not able to get them anything in return. SO, Rob went to Walmart and got some Mix Candy Bears and I split them up with my mom, stepfather and uncle and did them a good bag up for Valentine's Day and I made Homemade cards as well with Pink Ribbon I had here. It was cute but it was the thought that counts I guess. I didn't have much money to get everyone something separate so I just did it that way. It cost Rob maybe $5 for all three but at least it was from my heart. Rob got me a Teddy Bear that has the year on the foot from Walmart and that was really sweet. He always does that every year. I didn't get to get him anything at all but I did up a bag of candy and card for him so that is what I got him but actually he bought it. But it was from my heart though.
Well, I guess I will let you all go for now and thanks for taking the time to read all this and appreciate all the wonderful comments and thoughts on everything so please keep them coming in and please by all means email me at anytime you want. I will try to get to you as soon as I can okay. Take care and talk to you all soon. God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD
Sunday, February 1, 2009
A Warm Day In Delaware!
Hello and Good Afternoon/Early Evening to Everyone!
Sorry I have not been online much but as you have been reading on my posts I am trying to find a way to save my home but that is not looking any good at all. So, we have been looking for a place to go. As of Feb. 6th, 2009 we are suppose to be out I guess of the home we lost but we still have not found any place to go and we are hoping they will extend it to another 30 days. We have yet gotten an eviction notice from the sheriff so we will see what goes on.
No one has been in touch with us in over a week and we have tried to call them and they are just giving us another run around about everything. I was transferred to like 5 different people the other day just to get told that we have to look the place up at http://www.mls.com and see what the price is on there. We looked it up but as of right now it is saying starting bid is $211,000 and the house is not even worth that much and I don't think it would even appraise at that because it is over 22 yrs old and it is only on a little over 1 acre and it only has 2 bedrooms and 1 bath. We do have a upstairs but we use it as an attic because the stairs are not all that great and no one can walk up there and the upstairs rooms are unfinished anyway. So, we just use them for storage. I don't know what else to do and I have been in touch with everyone.
I did some research as you all know on Litton Loan Servicing and I posted the links on what they have been doing to people and it is not right. I wish there was a lawyer out there that would take on Litton and get them to get their stuff in order and stop playing with everyone's lives and their homes and etc. It is not right and very immoral to me. You can't even get sick or have a spouse pass away without them trying to take your home.
Well, enough about all that because it brings me down when I talk about that. Today I have not been feeling well because of all the stress I am under. I don't know if I was having a heart attack or a very severe panic attack but I took an aspirin and a xanax I had from when I was able to go to the doctor that I saved up and it calm me down finally. But than again it is really warm here today like in the 60's and I just can't believe how warm it is. Tomorrow and Tuesday we are suppose to be getting colder and maybe even possiblity of snow on the way yet again.
So did you all get any snow from last week? We finally got some snow and I loved it but the bad thing about it that it didn't last that long. LOL!
Well, I am going to get ready and go for now and I will see if I can come back later and talk some more got to potty and my mom is getting dinner done and getting ready to eat.
If you all watch the Super Bowl tonight ... Good luck on the team of your choosing. I am voting for the Steelers because that is my uncle's team that lives with us. So, GOOOOOO STEELERS!!!!!!!
Take care and talk to you all soon. God bless and many hugs, love, and prayers, KAT :OD
Sorry I have not been online much but as you have been reading on my posts I am trying to find a way to save my home but that is not looking any good at all. So, we have been looking for a place to go. As of Feb. 6th, 2009 we are suppose to be out I guess of the home we lost but we still have not found any place to go and we are hoping they will extend it to another 30 days. We have yet gotten an eviction notice from the sheriff so we will see what goes on.
No one has been in touch with us in over a week and we have tried to call them and they are just giving us another run around about everything. I was transferred to like 5 different people the other day just to get told that we have to look the place up at http://www.mls.com and see what the price is on there. We looked it up but as of right now it is saying starting bid is $211,000 and the house is not even worth that much and I don't think it would even appraise at that because it is over 22 yrs old and it is only on a little over 1 acre and it only has 2 bedrooms and 1 bath. We do have a upstairs but we use it as an attic because the stairs are not all that great and no one can walk up there and the upstairs rooms are unfinished anyway. So, we just use them for storage. I don't know what else to do and I have been in touch with everyone.
I did some research as you all know on Litton Loan Servicing and I posted the links on what they have been doing to people and it is not right. I wish there was a lawyer out there that would take on Litton and get them to get their stuff in order and stop playing with everyone's lives and their homes and etc. It is not right and very immoral to me. You can't even get sick or have a spouse pass away without them trying to take your home.
Well, enough about all that because it brings me down when I talk about that. Today I have not been feeling well because of all the stress I am under. I don't know if I was having a heart attack or a very severe panic attack but I took an aspirin and a xanax I had from when I was able to go to the doctor that I saved up and it calm me down finally. But than again it is really warm here today like in the 60's and I just can't believe how warm it is. Tomorrow and Tuesday we are suppose to be getting colder and maybe even possiblity of snow on the way yet again.
So did you all get any snow from last week? We finally got some snow and I loved it but the bad thing about it that it didn't last that long. LOL!
Well, I am going to get ready and go for now and I will see if I can come back later and talk some more got to potty and my mom is getting dinner done and getting ready to eat.
If you all watch the Super Bowl tonight ... Good luck on the team of your choosing. I am voting for the Steelers because that is my uncle's team that lives with us. So, GOOOOOO STEELERS!!!!!!!
Take care and talk to you all soon. God bless and many hugs, love, and prayers, KAT :OD
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Yet Another Day in Delaware
Well, I am still here but not know how or why. I am just getting depresser by the day. I have tried everything I can do to find another home that will accommodate us all to even trying to save the home we are all ready in. It is totally hard when you don't have a lot of money and no credit to get anything.
Today is another day and everyone is still giving me lots of run arounds.
A friend of mine did a search on the Internet to see what type of bank/mortgage company Litton Loan Servicing really are and boy did she find some really bad stuff on them. If you ever want to look it up go to http://www.google.com and type in either Litton Loan Servicing in Houston, TX or Complaints Litton Loan Servicing or even Litton Loan Servicing and see what you find out.
Here are just a few of the links that I got sent to me about all this...
(You can look or you don't have to look at all just thought I would share with everyone about how bad this company is.)
Consumer Affairs http://www.consumeraffairs.com/finance/litton_loan.html
Class Action Suit Against Litton Loan Servicing http://www.lieffcabraser.com/loan-servicing.htm
Ripoff Report http://www.ripoffreport.com/searchresults.asp?q5=Litton+Loan&searchtype=0&q1=ALL&q3=&q2=&q7=&q4=&q6=&start=0
Better Business Bureau (BBB) http://houston.bbb.org/WWWRoot/Report.aspx?site=148&bbb=0915&firm=68538
Complaints Board http://www.complaintsboard.com/complaints/litton-loan-servicing-c8710.html
Complaints.com http://www.complaints.com/directory/2005/february/25/36.htm
Well, we are still waiting to hear from the Attorney's but I know we will not so we are going to call them back tomorrow as it will be the 3 business day but I know they will give us another run around because they really don't want to talk to us anyway. We are still in touch with Mr. Allan Angel with Levy Court even though he is not in our district he is still trying to help us out as much as he can do. I was reading today that I could have tried to get a H4H if Litton would have told us about that. It is called H4H (Hope 4 Homeownership) it is a new program President Bush put into effect back in October 2008. I have to read up on it more in detail to see if we could have been able to do it but I just thought I would let others know if you have hard times look into it because it is good until 2011. Go to http://www.fha.gov and you will be able to click on Hope for Homeowners I think that is the link I clicked on. Or you maybe able to go to http://www.hud.gov too and find stuff. I have been doing a lot of research as I didn't know we would even be considered for HUD or FHA if we were at a Conventional Loan. So, I have been doing as much research as I can and so don't hold all this to be true for everyone as I am not totally sure but it is worth looking into if you come into trouble.
I want to say "THANK YOU" to everyone that has helped me out and for just listening and reading my post. You all mean so much to me and I hope that my outcome will come out of this really well, but who knows what tomorrow will bring to us all.
I want to let you all know that foremost IMPORTANCE in my life right now is SAVING my home or getting a home that will Accommodate everyone and their disabilities including mine. That is not working right now but I am still going to keep the faith and just stay positive and focused in all I am doing.
I know my HEALTH should be the most important thing right now but it isn't because if I was to worry about that I would be back in the hospital fighting for my life. The pictures I posted are OLDER pictures from when I had MRSA (Staph Resistant Infection). It is NO where never as bad as that and I am trying to make sure that it doesn't get that way. The only way I can do that is to be positive and think happy thoughts and try not to get over STRESSED or UPSET but right now that is not going in my direction but I am trying and that is all I can do right now.
Thank you all again for all your advice, prayers, thoughts, love and support. I truly really do appreciate everything from the bottom of my heart. You all are the best and look forward to talk with you all again soon. Thanks for everything and hope you have a very blessed day and hopefully I will be able to getting back into designing sometime soon after all this so I can show off my work. Take care and talk to you soon. God Bless Everyone!! Much love, support, prayers, and hugs, KAT :OD
Today is another day and everyone is still giving me lots of run arounds.
A friend of mine did a search on the Internet to see what type of bank/mortgage company Litton Loan Servicing really are and boy did she find some really bad stuff on them. If you ever want to look it up go to http://www.google.com and type in either Litton Loan Servicing in Houston, TX or Complaints Litton Loan Servicing or even Litton Loan Servicing and see what you find out.
Here are just a few of the links that I got sent to me about all this...
(You can look or you don't have to look at all just thought I would share with everyone about how bad this company is.)
Consumer Affairs http://www.consumeraffairs.com/finance/litton_loan.html
Class Action Suit Against Litton Loan Servicing http://www.lieffcabraser.com/loan-servicing.htm
Ripoff Report http://www.ripoffreport.com/searchresults.asp?q5=Litton+Loan&searchtype=0&q1=ALL&q3=&q2=&q7=&q4=&q6=&start=0
Better Business Bureau (BBB) http://houston.bbb.org/WWWRoot/Report.aspx?site=148&bbb=0915&firm=68538
Complaints Board http://www.complaintsboard.com/complaints/litton-loan-servicing-c8710.html
Complaints.com http://www.complaints.com/directory/2005/february/25/36.htm
Well, we are still waiting to hear from the Attorney's but I know we will not so we are going to call them back tomorrow as it will be the 3 business day but I know they will give us another run around because they really don't want to talk to us anyway. We are still in touch with Mr. Allan Angel with Levy Court even though he is not in our district he is still trying to help us out as much as he can do. I was reading today that I could have tried to get a H4H if Litton would have told us about that. It is called H4H (Hope 4 Homeownership) it is a new program President Bush put into effect back in October 2008. I have to read up on it more in detail to see if we could have been able to do it but I just thought I would let others know if you have hard times look into it because it is good until 2011. Go to http://www.fha.gov and you will be able to click on Hope for Homeowners I think that is the link I clicked on. Or you maybe able to go to http://www.hud.gov too and find stuff. I have been doing a lot of research as I didn't know we would even be considered for HUD or FHA if we were at a Conventional Loan. So, I have been doing as much research as I can and so don't hold all this to be true for everyone as I am not totally sure but it is worth looking into if you come into trouble.
I want to say "THANK YOU" to everyone that has helped me out and for just listening and reading my post. You all mean so much to me and I hope that my outcome will come out of this really well, but who knows what tomorrow will bring to us all.
I want to let you all know that foremost IMPORTANCE in my life right now is SAVING my home or getting a home that will Accommodate everyone and their disabilities including mine. That is not working right now but I am still going to keep the faith and just stay positive and focused in all I am doing.
I know my HEALTH should be the most important thing right now but it isn't because if I was to worry about that I would be back in the hospital fighting for my life. The pictures I posted are OLDER pictures from when I had MRSA (Staph Resistant Infection). It is NO where never as bad as that and I am trying to make sure that it doesn't get that way. The only way I can do that is to be positive and think happy thoughts and try not to get over STRESSED or UPSET but right now that is not going in my direction but I am trying and that is all I can do right now.
Thank you all again for all your advice, prayers, thoughts, love and support. I truly really do appreciate everything from the bottom of my heart. You all are the best and look forward to talk with you all again soon. Thanks for everything and hope you have a very blessed day and hopefully I will be able to getting back into designing sometime soon after all this so I can show off my work. Take care and talk to you soon. God Bless Everyone!! Much love, support, prayers, and hugs, KAT :OD
Monday, December 8, 2008
Another Bad day here in Delaware!
Hello and Good Afternoon Everyone that are reading this blog!!!
Well, today is just another bad day in my neighborhood.
First off my stepmother's nephew was shot 2 times in the chest and had to be air lifted to shock trauma unit at a very well known hospital. They don't know what is going on yet and if he is going to make it or not. The police and FBI are still investigating this due to he was left to die after being shot. So, please say some prayers for him and their family. The nephew's father is also dying from cancer and he could die any day now and this is all he needs. So, the family is up to the hospital by the boys side to find out what is going on. As soon as I know anything I will report it here okay.
Than we got bad news about our home too. They maybe wanting to foreclose on it because my stepfather and mom both got behind due to him losing his job and my mom is disabled like myself. Most of you know that we all live together. I am on disability and my hubby works. So, we all don't get that much due to the fact that we are not married legally and they would calculate the incomes together. So, when my stepfather lost his job and now he is unable to work due to him falling and hurting himself and getting sick with the Narcolepsy and Sleep Apnea we have fallen behind on the mortgage.
We don't know what to do or how to stop what is going to happen. If anyone knows of anything please let us know. Me and Rob would love to buy the house from my stepfather and take over the payments that are lower in rate if we can. That would be so much better than having to try to come up with the high payment my stepfather has now. So, if you all can help out that would be greatly appreciated. As must of you know I am handicapped and more less homebound and have NO means of getting out if we have to move.
I am just so upset and all this happening here at the holidays. That is why I have not been online much because I am not trying to use my online service that much because I am going to have to try to either discontinue it or I am going to have to cut it down or something because I don't know what to do anymore. I just feel like each day in my life it is getting worse and worse and I am getting deeper and deeper into a rut and I can't get out of it. I feel like I am such a USELESS person and can't do anything right anymore. I have a college degree and not able to get or be able to work because of being on oxygen 24 hours a day and in a wheelchair and in so much pain. But I know that there are so many more people out there that are worse off than I am and that is what gets me up everyday.
I am really lose for words and don't know what to say anymore because of this depression that is setting in on me and how I need to get out of this and what I can do to make everything better for me and my family and my health. I just don't know what to do anymore. Please help us all out if you can or know how. Thanks a million and god bless everyone!!! Love you all!! Hugs, KAT :*o(
Well, today is just another bad day in my neighborhood.
First off my stepmother's nephew was shot 2 times in the chest and had to be air lifted to shock trauma unit at a very well known hospital. They don't know what is going on yet and if he is going to make it or not. The police and FBI are still investigating this due to he was left to die after being shot. So, please say some prayers for him and their family. The nephew's father is also dying from cancer and he could die any day now and this is all he needs. So, the family is up to the hospital by the boys side to find out what is going on. As soon as I know anything I will report it here okay.
Than we got bad news about our home too. They maybe wanting to foreclose on it because my stepfather and mom both got behind due to him losing his job and my mom is disabled like myself. Most of you know that we all live together. I am on disability and my hubby works. So, we all don't get that much due to the fact that we are not married legally and they would calculate the incomes together. So, when my stepfather lost his job and now he is unable to work due to him falling and hurting himself and getting sick with the Narcolepsy and Sleep Apnea we have fallen behind on the mortgage.
We don't know what to do or how to stop what is going to happen. If anyone knows of anything please let us know. Me and Rob would love to buy the house from my stepfather and take over the payments that are lower in rate if we can. That would be so much better than having to try to come up with the high payment my stepfather has now. So, if you all can help out that would be greatly appreciated. As must of you know I am handicapped and more less homebound and have NO means of getting out if we have to move.
I am just so upset and all this happening here at the holidays. That is why I have not been online much because I am not trying to use my online service that much because I am going to have to try to either discontinue it or I am going to have to cut it down or something because I don't know what to do anymore. I just feel like each day in my life it is getting worse and worse and I am getting deeper and deeper into a rut and I can't get out of it. I feel like I am such a USELESS person and can't do anything right anymore. I have a college degree and not able to get or be able to work because of being on oxygen 24 hours a day and in a wheelchair and in so much pain. But I know that there are so many more people out there that are worse off than I am and that is what gets me up everyday.
I am really lose for words and don't know what to say anymore because of this depression that is setting in on me and how I need to get out of this and what I can do to make everything better for me and my family and my health. I just don't know what to do anymore. Please help us all out if you can or know how. Thanks a million and god bless everyone!!! Love you all!! Hugs, KAT :*o(
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