Just sitting home on a Saturday Night (BORED)

Hello and Good Evening Everyone! How is everyone doing? I hope fine!

Well, there has been some really sad stuff happening in the news lately. I just can't believe that Michael Jackson is dead at only 50 yrs old. He was my idol back in the day when I was growing up. I have his Thriller Album and several books of him when I was younger and I still have them. I even had his Off The Wall Album as well. But everything is packed up right now.

Than we have Farrah Fawcett who passed away as well. It is unbelievable that they passed away only a few hours from each other. It is remarkable and very weird.

What has been going on in my life lately? Well, it is just boring like normal. Very painful like normal as well. My leg is getting worse with the pain. I just don't know what is causing it. I don't eat or drink anything that has caffeine in it. I try to stay away from anything that has Citric Acid in it because I have gout too. So, I don't know why or what is causing this pain. It is from my lower back to my foot on my right side. My leg isn't swelled up so that is a plus but it still hurts really bad. Even just to get up to walk to the bathroom is killing me so much.

My birthday was on Monday, June 22 and I just turned 35 yrs old. I can't believe it. It was not a good day at all. Rob had to work until after 8pm and than my real dad and his ex girlfriend/Stepmom (whom he lives with) showed up and they started a fight and only stayed for 1 hour and that was it. I can't believe that they can't come around without starting anymore. He only stayed here for Father's Day only 2 hours and normally he stays longer but he didn't. That is what started the fight with my stepmom and him. Because my dad told her I didn't want her here for Father's Day and that was not it. He said he didn't want her here because she starts all the time. And it was his day and he didn't want her to be here. So, I said to him it was up to him if he wanted to bring her and all but we did have enough for her to come for dinner. So, that started it and my mom still sent her a plate for dinner and than all heck went off. So, than on my birthday the next day after Father's Day they come over and brought their drama over here and I just didn't want that on my special day. So, my dad decided to leave. No one got me a gift for my birthday. They all give me money. I didn't get much as they all didn't have much this year. The only thing I got which was my very EARLY gift from Rob and that was a BlackBerry Storm because he had to update phones in May and he got it for only $100 because we had to upgrade and they had a special. That is a kewl gift. I try to use it as much as I can. LOL! I am learning it and learning it as I am not familiar with it too much this is the first type of phone I have had that had all these features. LOL!

Other than that everything else has been boring and lonely and depressing lately. I just haven't been in a very good mood. I just don't know maybe it is because we are having to move. We did get Pre-Approved for up to $120,000 but we are trying to see if we can get someone else on the mortgage to see if we can get a little bit more for the place that we have found. So, keep your fingers crossed for us.

Well, I guess I will let you all go for now and I will try to get back on later or tomorrow okay. Take care and know that I am thinking about all of you all the time. Talk to you soon. Many hugs and lots of love, KAT :OD

Unbelievable more bad luck...

I really do believe that someone has a curse or bad luck is just hoovering over us all. LOL!

Just yesterday we had to call the ambulance on my uncle in which whom lives with us. Some reason his blood sugar dropped to only 33 and it is suppose to be between 120-140 at all times. He is on insulin so it really dropped to fast and he was unconscious more less and in and out of it. Me and my mom got scared and didn't know what to do because he would not wake up so we could try to get his blood sugar reading and to help him to get something in him to eat and drink. So, we just called the ambulance again. This is the 4 time in the past 3 months or more that it has done this. I have told his primary care doctor and his diabetic doctor too. See they are saying that he is going to have to go on dialysis soon. I really am not looking forward to that. It is bad enough I have to make his insulin needles up for him everyday and he is on 4 of them a day. He can't do it for himself because he can't see good for one and than he would over dose himself because he did that before when he first started taking the insulin that is why I started to do them for him.

That is why I have not been online since the other day. Plus, I am trying to find a mortgage company that will not lie to us and tell us one thing and than go and do something else.

I appreciate all the prayers and thoughts that are being said for us. We all really need lots of prayers for everyone. That is why I pray for you all as well.

Well, Monday, June 22, 2009 I will be officially "35" yrs old and I feel like I have not accomplished anything in my life at all. I feel like that failure my real father always said I would be. I can't believe my birthday will be here so fast. I am not able to go and do anything and don't have any money to do anything even if I wanted too.

Well, I hope you all have a great "FATHER'S DAY" and hope that you get to spend it with your fathers. Take care of yourselves and hopefully I will be back online later or tomorrow okay. I know I will not be online at all Sunday or Monday unless I get lonely okay. Well, you all be good and know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers always and forever!!

God bless you all and many hugs and lots of love, KAT :OD

Another Bummed Out Day in Delaware!!!

I am very upset and down and out yet again today.

First off last night I didn't sleep well because I was up all night with muscle cramps in both my legs. They were so severe that I fell out of the bed trying to get them to stop cramping up. I am taking Potassium pills and Vitamin E everyday. I am eating vegetables and very light salt here and there but I am still getting the leg cramps. Well, that started my day off.

Than my stepfather was calling and calling me on the phone all morning wanting me to get up. Well, I didn't feel good because of being up all night so I didn't want to get up but he kept calling me. So, finally I got up at around 1pm today. I know I am so bad but what can you do if you don't get to sleep after 5am in the morning with all the cramps.

Anyway, when I got up I heard the phone ringing this morning but I just let it go to the answering machine well, because I did the lady that was trying to help us to get a mortgage gets someone else to call and tell us that there isn't anyway they can help us out. She leads us on about my mom and boyfriend coming in last Friday to sign paper work and because I told her on her answering machine on Monday that we needed to get things done within 1 months time. So, today I get a call not from her but someone else telling me that there isn't anyway they can help us out. What gets me is that they tell you one thing and because you ask them to help you to get all this done in 1 month or so they are like oh no we can't help you now. What the heck is going on there?? It doesn't make any sense to me.

Than it seems like so much is going on and on in our lives besides having to move. I can't believe what everyone wants from us and everyone is awhere of us having to move and no one wants to help us out but they want us to help them out with money and food and stuff and we have to have money to move. I just don't know what to do anymore. Do you say "NO" to them or do you help them out and than don't get any help in return and just keep giving out?

Rob had off today but he had to go to work to get them to straighten out his paycheck because they didn't put in for his sick time and we really need it because he had vacation time he had to use during his sickness. Thank goodness he had vacation time so he didn't lose any money. I don't know what we would have done if he didn't have any vacation time. We would not be eating or able to have any supplies for bathroom(toilet paper, shampoo, and soap). It is really hard with him being the soul provider in the family. Than he got bills from the doctor and imagining place that did xrays when he was sick. But he shouldn't got them because he has Coventry and some other insurance and it is suppose to be paying over 100% of his bills. So, he had to take that in as well. They said it has all ready been paid and don't know why they are sending him any bills. So, hopefully that will be worked out.

Well, I guess it is getting late and all so I guess I will sign off for now but you all take care and talk to you again tomorrow okay. I will be sure that I sign on to talk to you all more tomorrow okay. Love you all and many hugs and blessings!!! God bless you all! KAT :OD

WOW! I can't believe how long it's been...

WOW I am so sorry for not getting online sooner but it has been a very rough couple of months here.

We are still looking for a place to live. We are still in the same house but we have only until July 18, 2009 to be out. The bank is offering us a thing called "Cash for Keys" and if we offer the house up free and clean and no damage they will offer us some $$$ for the keys.

Rob has been out of work for the past 3 weeks before last week. He finally went back to work on June 1, 2009. He had walking Pneumonia and starting stages of COPD. I got really upset and with all the stress of everything that has been going on I got sick with Pneumonia and Bronchitis.

I just don't know what to do or where to turn sometimes. But I have been looking up to GOD so much lately. I have been praying more and more lately.

I thank you all for standing by me in my time of need. Please forgive me so much for taking so long to get back on the computer. I hope you all will understand.

Thank you again for everything and hope to be emailing you and chatting with you all again on here. I will try to do everything on here again everyday and hope I can stay on here at least once a week if not longer.

Well, you all take care and I will talk with you all again tomorrow. Thanks again for taking the time to read. And please forgive me for not writing sooner. I know it has been so long. We have had to do so much!!! Thanks! God bless and many hugs and love, KAT :OD

GOOD NEWS!!!!

Thank you all so much for all the prayers got some really GOOD news. I should say "GREAT" news. My mom's test results come back and the paper said that there was "NO SIGNIFICANT ABNORMALITIES" that were detected in the testings.

As I am taking this as good news but I could be wrong. The doctor has not gotten the records himself to tell her but this is the letter she got from the hospital where she had to go. We got this letter today. We are so happy and relieved on this.

Thank you all so much for all the wonderful and kind words of support, prayers and everything else you all have been giving us all. It really means the world to me.

I wish I could do something for each and everyone of you but I don't know what I could do without any money or anyway of showing you how much I care. I am going to try to do some designs this week and I will post them here for you all to take a pick at them if you like. OK!

Just wanted to get online and let you all know what is going on. Thanks again and if I did take this letter wrong please let me know. God bless you always forever!!!! Keep the faith and keep up all the good work you all are done. Many hugs and lots of love, KAT :OD

Update on my mom's appointment

Hello and Good Afternoon Everyone!!

Just wanted to give you what I know about my mom's appointment today about her breast and the spots they found.

They have done a massive intensive diagnosic testing today. They did another mammogram at the hospital which has a better machine to test than the clinic does. They did an ultrasound of the breast as well. And some other test but my mom didn't know what it was called.

The lady that did the testing said to my mom it is on the inner wall of her breast. The tech lady was looking at it with her magnifying glass so I don't know if that is because it is so little or because she seen something she didn't like.

She told my mom that it would be 3 to 5 business days before she would hear anything back on this. So, now my mom is weird and upset over that. She thought she was going to know today.

If you all don't mind please say as many prayers you can for my mom (Geraldine aka Gerry). I love her so much. She is my best friend and I can't live without her. I don't know what I would do if she does have cancer. I have been praying all night and day. I have been crying since yesterday. I even cried myself to sleep last night. It is just so horrible to think about all this with everything else that is going on.

Well, I appreciate everything you all have done and are doing for me. You all are the BEST and I LOVE each and everyone of you who reads or keeps up with this blog. Thanks for the SUPPORT, FRIENDSHIP, LOVE, and most of all the PRAYERS!!!!!!!

Thanks again for everything and hope you all have a great and blessed day!! Many hugs and lots of love, KAT :OD

Still ALIVE and sorry for not writing sooner!!!

Well, it has been a very long time since I wrote last. I am still ALIVE to say the least. I have been super sick with Bronchitis and Pneumonia and I thought at one time or another they were going to have to call the ambulance on me and take me to the hospital. I am lucky that I didn't have to go there, but my uncle (he lives with us) had to go 2 times. Once in the end of February he was hospitalized with Pneumonia and Renal Failure and than again on March 3, 2009 for seizures and renal failure and his blood sugar levels dropping down below 40.

So, needless to say there has not been a good time in this house. My stepfather is very ill and now he has cut his leg open (back left) and it is really bad cut and it is leaking fluid like my leg does but mine is my right leg.

Now on Monday March 23, 2009 my mom goes to finally have her breast check again to see if the mass in there is cancerous or benign. Which I hope and pray it is benign. I don't know what I would do if it was cancerous. We have been waiting over 6 months to have this rechecked because Medicaid would not pay for it because it had not been over 6 months. So, we are hoping it is the fiber cysts she had before but gone down deeper. So, if you all believe in prayers will you please say a prayer for my mom Geraldine aka Gerry. I really do appreciate it because I (we) all depend on her so much and don't know what we would do without her.

Well, I guess I am going to go for now but I am hoping to be back tomorrow to update you all more as to what is going on. I am hurting really bad today and it is killing me to sit here to type. I am sorry. Please take care and talk to you soon. God bless and many hugs and lots of love, KAT :OD